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sometimes it feels like i don't have any friends... but then again, maybe it's true...

sometimes i feel like i'm alone... that i have no one to go to when i'm in need... maybe it's a family curse... that everyone in our family needs to be alone and never experience the fun to be with others except relatives... i don't want that... sometimes it feels like everyone just needs to move on and leave everyone behind... i never did that... sometimes the person you think you could go to is the person who shoves you off...

why are people like that? why does people have to have "the status"? why does people have to have "barriers"? why??? maybe because it's just the law of people, to put labels on each other...

sometimes i think that the feeling i have is not just a feeling... but the truth... that i don't really have friends... why? one, maybe because everyone else have their own cliques and i don't? my label: "LOSER"!!! ok, accept that... why? because there's nothing wrong with not giving in to bad things... nothing wrong with speaking your mind... nothing wrong with doing what you have to do... nothing wrong with trying to be at your best... nothing wrong to be alone...

ok... so maybe i really don't have any friends at all but just people i meet and get to know each day... so maybe i need friends and am in constant need of advice and guidance... so maybe i need to be more... i don't know... i don't know what i have to change in me... because what i know is, a really friend is someone who accepts you for who you are...

so, do i have a friend? or none at all? maybe from this day on, i will play as someone invisible... those people who i bug most of the time, say bye to the mysh you knew... since this day on, i will be an invisible woman... sorry...