Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.

It doesn't only make me smile, it makes me blush as well… teehee!

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.

Here's a picture of me with my most favorite baby cousin, Scott, from way, way back…

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

My glasses… Sure, I don't usually wear them and I probably take them for granted… but they mean a lot to me cause I can't read or drive in the dark without them! Besides, these are the glasses I chose all on my own! :)

Day 25 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

My laptop! I simply can't imagine how I lived before I had it… I love you, baby! <3

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.

I just hate animal abuse. I wish people would just stop and value the animals' lives.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

It's just so sweet, romantic and so sad… I love it.

Day 22 - A picture that makes you laugh.

"Keep it in the family." So adorable!!!

Day 21- A picture of your second family.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

London! The beautiful city of London.

Day 19 - A picture of a person you'd love to hang out with for a day.

Who else but Barney Stinson?!

Day 18 - A picture of your day.

Well, technically, it's another night of mine. 2nd post celebration of my birthday for the year! Happy Lemon!!!

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life

Yoga! Since attending classes of yoga in the gym, I learned how to stretch and to cure certain pains on my body. Also, it has taught me to breathe and stay calm during my most panicky moments. I heart yoga!

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Besides being a great actor, Ian Somerhalder is everything else that portrays a nearly perfect human being! Don't let his model past fool you, he is one smart cookie who loves to read, appreciates good music, plays soccer, knows how to cook and cares about the environment and animals more than anybody else! Sure, he's not a vegetarian but you don't have to be one to be an animal lover! He even has his own foundation set up just a few months back, the ISF or Ian Somerhalder Foundation, check it out! www.isfoundation.com! So, besides all that, fall in love in those smoldering eyes of his for more inspiration! Need I say more?

Day 15 - A picture of something you are excited about.

My one year master's degree in Shanghai! Leaving on October already! :)

Day 14 - A picture of what scares you.

Injections! My greatest fear... and I'm getting my shots tomorrow! sheesh!

Day 13 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.

I am a loner at times and I am usually with the same group of people when I go out. But the most messed up things that I did in my life was, and still is, with this group of people! The short lived OJT stint in Unilever and our almost non-existent get-togethers are the most messed up things that I have done!

Love these guys!

Clockwise from top left : Piyush, Mike, Glenn, Aiko, Me, Ces and Ja.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

Mozy, my little pomeranian… <3

Day 11 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

I simply want to travel the world. Get to know the different culture, lifestyle and languages of people, get to see all the sights that I now can only see on the TV, travel across continents, have a taste of their food and go to every amusement park in the world and ride all their rides!!!

Day 10 - A picture of your favorite band/ artist.

Can't beat the classics! (well, classic for me.) Here's Nirvana!

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

No doubt, my aunt! The one wearing blue beside me. She's the mum that I'm supposed to have.

Day 08 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Yep, wall climbing. I was introduced to this last January by my cousin and I just enjoy it. I sure wish there was somewhere nearer for me to wall climb.

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

Ok, let me cheat on this one. My most treasured item is the necklace and pendant that I have on. You see that little cross pendant there? I don't know why but I had it since I was in grade 5 and it was given to me by my Mum and well, I haven't removed it ever since (except for the pendant since I change it sometimes). Another is my dog, Mozy and his M pendant collar. He gets aggressive whenever someone tries to remove his collar.

Day 06 - A picture of you when you were little.

When you say little, you weren't kidding! This is a picture of me taken by my dad in the hospital on May 26, 1987. I was born on May 25, 1987 so hey, I was little :)

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory of the year.

Despite the many travels, adventures and first times this year, the most that stuck with me was the moment I received this at work. Surely, it was the most memorable moment for me this year.

Day 4 : A picture of your night

This was taken on May 28, 2011 at Manila Pavillion. This was my night simply because it's my post birthday celebration for the year with my friends!

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

The Vampire Diaries, the most beautiful cast on television for me. Besides the fast paced drama, all the killings and bloodshed happening, I enjoy the soundtrack as well.

Oh, they also dominated Sci-Fi category in the TCA's 2011! Go TVD! :)

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.

From left : Ken, Tep, (me) and Jira.

I've known Jira for as long as forever, Tep since elementary and Ken since high school. Simply the best set of friends I (not anyone) could have! :)

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with sixteen facts.

1. I'm a girl who is full of surprises.

2. I often smile even if I'm hurt.

3. I don't forgive and forget.

4. I have a very low self esteem.

5. I have trust issues.

6. I'm a workaholic and a semi-perfectionist.

7. I love being in control.

8. I can sometimes be a loner.

9. I love listening to DJ Mo Twister and would die for his autograph and a picture.

10. I care for the environment, in my own little way.

11. Amusement parks are my favorite place to visit.

12. I love the thrill I get from white water rafting and wall climbing.

13. I would love to meet Ian Somerhalder before I die, get a peck on the cheek or my hand, a picture and an autograph.

14. I enjoy shopping.

15. I have a slight problem with heights.

16. I'm not waiting for a prince charming to arrive, I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor to defend and take care of me.

30 day photo challenge

Just for fun, will be doing the 30 day photo challenge.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with sixteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your night.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory of the year.
Day 06 - A picture ofyou when you were little.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of your favorite band/ artist.
Day 11 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
Day 14 - A picture of what scares you.
Day 15 - A picture of something you are excited about.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life.
Day 18 - A picture of your day.
Day 19 - A picture of a person you'd love to hang out with for a day.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21- A picture of your second family.
Day 22 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

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Denial, Acceptance, Coping Up and Moving on. I know, I know… what?! But that's the topic I have been talking about the whole day, so let's just go on with it.

1. Breaking up is a normal occurrence.

2. Nothing in life is perfect, things don't always go our way.

3. People move on.

4. Things change. and

5. You have have to accept all these in order to move on yourself.

I know, I'm probably the worst person to "preach" about this. I'm not even the slightest romantic or sweet person when it comes to relationships and I'm positively not an expert at moving on. (read previous entries) But I learn from the past, I learn from my mistakes and the mistakes of others. So I kinda know how things go.

Being friends with your ex is crap and there is no such thing as closure! Being civil is one thing, being back to what you had before is another thing. When you look for closure or an explanation on why things happened, it just means you're still not over it. You're still clinging on to what is gone and you're still hoping for something to return or happen. Well, sad truth, when you want to move on, you simply have to let go. You can't go around stalking your ex, talking to his or her new partner about things… you simply can't. What do you care about them? You don't have the right to tell them to be or not to be together. Your ex doesn't have to have your permission to get into another relationship cause YOU DON'T OWN THEM!!! You just have to accept the fact that the person has moved on from you and has found another human being who can make them happy or forget about you. Yes, rebounds count.

Now, how do you cope with things? Whether it be the cliche "find someone new", enjoy your friends' company, see a shrink or simply be alone, different people have different ways of coping with sadness or worst, depression. I can't say anything much about this cause you just have to know yourself in order to know how you cope up with things.

After much thought on the topic, move on. Simply return to being normal, enjoying things and just realize that you, and your happiness, is more important than ANY human being.

a simple message

Ever received a mail, open it and find yourself smiling all by yourself? Ever received a package, without any sender on it but once you open it you know who sent it?

These past few days, I have been exchanging e-mails with a friend of mine. I don't know if it's because he doesn't have anyone else to talk to, which is highly impossible, or I'm just persistent and he think it's rude not to reply to my mails. Not that I'm sending tons of e-mail! I just send one and our thread goes on and on. I find myself checking my e-mail more often, looking for that certain name to appear on my screen and reading the reply even if it's just a simple haha. Yes, you probably thought right, I like this guy that's why I can't stop the communication nor the smiling that's evident on my face everytime I receive a reply from him.

I don't assume, at all. but why is there a little part at the back of my head telling me otherwise?

moving on

It's been almost a year since my last post here! I can't believe it's that long since I felt so alone and so, well, defeated.

Work's challenging and great, my student visa is on it's way, I'm gonna be paying my tuition for my master's degree in the coming weeks, my accommodations are well on it's way as well and I will be leaving for Shanghai for a year in a few months… so, what's wrong? I have everything I need and probably more than what I deserve… I have travelled to a lot of places in the past 6 months alone (Cagayan de Oro, Camiguin, Cebu, Hong Kong, Boracay, Coron, Thailand and Singapore) with more than enough money to spend… I have my almost weekly movie and dinner dates with my friend, which I truly enjoy… So what else do I search for?

A lot of people must think, wow, this is one selfish person! Well……… I still feel like I'm not moving. I still feel like I haven't accomplished ANYTHING at all! I still live in the same house, I still have an almost empty bank account, I still depend on people for financial support and I still haven't lost weight! Sure, I might have grown in some ways… I now know how to handle my emotions (most of the time) through meditation, I know how to prioritize things, and I don't let small things bother me as much. BUT still, I'm still the same me I was years ago!

I feel like a download status bar at 1% with an indeterminable estimated time of completion, a countdown timer on a time bomb that has been deactivated at the last second or a clock ticking back and forth about to run out of battery. I'm going nowhere.

A sudden poke in my brain made me realize that next year, I'm going to be in my mid-twenties! Well, I suppose that I am in my mid-20's now… and still, look at me! I'm still stuck here, in this life, with nothing and nowhere to go. I feel so unaccomplished, so defeated and just so down. I think it's time to go to a shrink!