after 6 years of not minding this topic, it finally came back to haunt me... "TRUST".
some people may think what's wrong with it, what's the problem with it? if a person is your friend, you should trust him and if this person is a special someone, the more that you should trust him! right? i have nothing against the special someone, i know that this person is special to you mainly because you trust him enough to want to spend your life with him. but here's the thing, what about friends?
there are also different kind of friends, some friends that you have known for life and others for a short while maybe a year or two or even a bit more than that. i have no problem trusting old friends, friends that i have known for almost all my life... but here's the thing, what about new friends? of course some people i learned how to trust, almost too quickly because they earned my trust in that way.
but there are some people who earned my trust but right now, extinguishing it slowly. in short, after being with them for more than two years, i'm starting to doubt and i honestly say that i am confused right now. maybe all these things that are happening right now are just starting to get to my nerves... opening up the part of me who doesn't easily welcome people into my life, who always have a hard time to trust people and doubt almost everyone.
so, tust, is it something that i really need? is it important to friendship and all other relationship between two people? i think yes but what do i know? i'm only human after all.
