course card

wah! doomsday number three... done! :D it's really not doomsday cause i found myself very happy until now... here's the deal...

i told myself last night that i could face anything today... what ever will come, i can take it and accept it... then there i was, in dlsu at around 8 am... trying to find out what's in store for me when i get my engalge and trigsol course cards... nahirapan ako sa mga yun e... adjusting... gyahahah!!! anyway, got my p.e. course card first and the rest followed... here's the results...

peindiv 4.0
saliksik P
nstp-c1 2.5
philhis 4.0
grapone 2.5
filipi1 2.0
engalge 2.0
trigsol 1.5
orient1 P
englone 3.5

so, that pretty much vanquished my DL fantasy... gyahahha!!! but when i got my course card in trigsol... even though it's my lowest, i was estatic!!! gosh!!! i hugged nikka and nikki because i really went hyper... i can't believe i passed engalge and trigsol!!! gyahahah!!! i was jumping all over the room not thinking about what others may thing... sabay tawag sa phone! super tuwa ko na i just have to tell the news to my best at once! anyway, after getting my gpa, (2.75)... nanghinayang ako... i should have tried harder... studied harder not only during the finals... i could have made it!!! argh!!! nasa huli nga ang pagsisisi... o well, next term... swear! nerdox na ako... sobra!!! gagayahin ko na si beloved cousin... :P

thanks best! :D kaw una nag congrats sa akin! :D

happy happy day!!!

wow!!! this is by far one happy day!!! everything is outasite! :D

well, went to ust awhile ago... get this, pangatlong beses ko na pumunta dun by jeep, isang beses palang ako hindi naligaw... and hindi ngayon yun... :D in short, i got lost... again!!! i went on the wrong jeep... ok... stupidity... to the max!!! anyway, i walked around espana area for like 30 minutes under the hot sun looking for dapitan street!!! i was at the wrong side all the time... anyway, when i found my way to dapitan, i call some people up... told them i was in ust that time... and i would be staying in bk with haze and jira... gyahahha!!! we had lots of fun catching up on each others lives... trust me, getting lost and riding 3 jeepney rides... it's all worth it once i saw my best friend... :D we were: haze, jira, sd, anne cua, athan, porman and me.

at around 130 pm... it's time for me and jira to vamoose! oh, that's after anne and sd treated us with some japanese cakes from... somewhere... :P anyway, we rode a taxi going to kenevvy's house for our scheduled badminton session... ok... after having a lot of food fest last week, it's finally time to get it off our tummies! :D so, jira, kenevvy, czayenn and me rode a jeepney off to make some game! we played badminton from i don't know what time til 5 pm... trust me... i was icky, yucky, stinky and sticky!!! gyahahhaha!!!

but never the less, i really had so much fun today... thanks guys! :D

quizzy thingy

7 random facts about you:
1. love sleeping
2. now liking shopping
3. photography is my thing... ata...
4. can't live without my cellphones
5. love to chill
6. internet dependent
7. kj na sa inuman... gyahahahha!!!

7 things that scare you:
1. losing my cellphone privileges... wah!!! nightmare!
2. losing my access to the www... torture!!!
3. roaches... kadiri!!!
4. angry people... scary...
5. being bored to death... at HOME!!!
6. sparking wires or electric outlets...
7. losing someone dear...

things you like most:
1. music... cant live without it...
2. my laptop...
3. my cellphones...
4. skirts and shoes!!! adore them!!!
5. my digicam...
6. movies!!!
7. writing when i'm in the mood...

7 important things in my bed room:
1. laptop
2. bed
3. haro
4. tv
5. journals
6. pictures
7. my candle collections and models

7 things you plan to do before you die
1. be a millionare?! :D
2. learn french, spanish, nihonggo and speak straight chinese...
3. learn how to play the guitar and the violin.. .and the drums
4. be better in math... actually, to love and adore math... :))
5. go to disneyland... or tour around the world...
6. drive
7. tell all my loved ones that i love them and how much they mean to me...

7 things I can't do:
1. earn enough money to satisfy my needs and desires...
2. resist long enough
3. stop crying before i go to sleep
4. sleep continuously...
5. draw...
6. sit in front of a sewing machine and stitch all the designs i want
7. don't eat while i'm baking... i always seem to be taking a few even before the whole batch is done...

7 things that atttract you to the opposite sex:
1. eyes
2. physique... sexy men... *shy away*
3. sense of humor
4. pag maalaga sa akin
5. attractive ang kilos... in short, magaling sumayaw...
6. cute!!! in every way... sobra!!!
7. expressive... and sensitive...

7 things you say the most:
1. pOta!
2. shEt!
3. yikes!!!
4. pUcha...
5. fUck!!!
6. bUllshEt!
7. o my gosh...

7 celeb crushes:
1. David Boreanaz!
2-7. ala na e... :P

7 people you want to take this quiz:
1. mama teppie
2. megami
3. unisse
4. maxi
5. ahya terry
6. herschel
7. kung sino pa may gusto?! :D

after the pain

got a day of window shopping today! well, for me, window shopping is a drug... know why? because everytime i "window" shop, i tend to crave for so many things... i want this, i want that... enough wants to make my pocket flat and my money go bye bye... even though i don't bring any money at all like awhile ago, i tend to list it all down and return the next day... like what i will be doing tomorrow...

im not a shopaholic til around this july i think... i always had some pocket money for a chill out time but not now... i always want to go shopping... dati, hilain mo ako, hindi parin ako magshoshop for clothes... now, i just can't seem to get away from them... here's another thing, in the past, you won't be able to let me wear a skirt so often... once in a blue moon ani nga... now, i shop for skirts! gosh!!! nothing surprising about shoes though... i have always love shoes...hell!!! i'm crazy about shoes!!!

anyway, i'm gonna end this discussing of shopping and me becoming a shopaholic right now... it reminds me of the things i want to acquire... trust me... it's gonna cost me a fortune!!! just look at my wishlist... that isn't even 1/4 of what i like to buy... or to have... o, btw, my wishlist has just been updated a little while back... :D anyway, shopping is my get away, you know, besides comics and video games... it's my paradise from the world... just not a vacation for my wallet though... :P

sufferings... pathetic

finally... i got the guts to write something in here again... not everything really...

first of all, i want to apologize to some people... me being eighteen doesn't mean i can have drinking fest when i want to... i still got responsibilities... like not letting people get worried about me getting drunk... mahina ako sa inuman dudes... isa lang may amats na ako... anyway, the reason is that and that alone... i don't want others to worry about me ever again...

next, all these things that i keep on thinking about right now is really starting to bug me... i hate myself for thinking... wish i don't think at all... not that i think all the time... i usually don't think... but... with all this thinking, i'm suffering already... i'm becoming pathetic... anyway... i don't want to go into details...

lastly, i got to free myself...


Your Japanese name should be

'Aki'

which means
"autumn".

You can be compared with
autumn, the way the autumn weather changes, is
how your feelings change. You have these mood
swings you can't control; one moment you're
happy, the next you're feeling almost
depressed. You're probably sensitive and
creative.


Which Japanese name fits you best? [females, 9 results + absolutely stunning ANIME pictures!]
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You're crying because you're confused. You're going
through a lot of changes and you don't know
whether to be happy or upset. You don't know
what to do or who to trust. You're afraid to
move on, but you're also afriad to stay where
you are. Sometimes you just wish you could
disappear.


Why are you crying? (beautiful pics)
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could it be

ever since i watched kim possible:so the drama last saturday in disney channel, i have been totally hooked up to its plot and the song... could it be

Could It Be
]

I Know we've been friends forever
But now I think Im feeling something totally new
and after all this time I opened up my eyes
now I see you were always with me

[chorus]
could it be you & I
never imagined
could it be suddenly Im fallin' for you
could it be you were right here beside me and I never knew
could it be that its true
Its you and its you

Its kinda funny you were always near
but who would ever thought we'd end up here
and everytime I need you youve been there for me
now its clear Ive been waiting for you

[chorus]
cause today is the start of the rest of our lives
I can see it in your eyes
and its real/and its true
Its just me and you
could it be that its you

[chorus]

[ ]

i know it's kinda juvenile... i mean, a lot of stories have almost the same plot... it's really predictable, and yet, i find the story nice... like the one in card captor sakura and ufo baby... i find the formula used in this kind of shows nice and really captivating... i mean, a guy and a girl.... knowing each other for so long and not realizing that they are falling for each other... hey, i can't say that i don't fantasize... i do actually... ala lang... trip... :D it's a nice song btw, could it be by Christy Carlson Romano... you should listen to it sometime.. :D

calvin and hobbes

it seems that since wednesday, i think, i have been reading calvin and hobbes comics besides the usual archie comics that i usually read... anyway, why am i saying this? it's because i really find the two of them overly cute and funny!!!

i find reading comics of calvin and hobbes relaxing... yet ironical in my part because we are about to have our finals for our two major subjects come monday and tuesday and we already started our exams last week starting with philhis and the rest followed... in fact, just this morning, we just had our p.e. practical and written exams. anyway, you can say that since i was at a younger age, i have been found of reading comics and never got to get this passion of mine to stop since then...

anyway, how relax am i? i'm very relaxed right now, i got my sleep and i finished two calvin and hobbes book collections this week, we finished our grapone finals and i just have to average my plates... which by the way is not complete... has anybody seen my plate in dimensions around dlsu??? or did someone borrow it? please please please, let me know.. i got a 99 on that plate and i don't want to repeat it again!!! so anyway, i shouldn't be relaxing right now since i have a failing average on both engalge and trigsol... help!!! i should be solving my day away... but i plan to do it tomorrow...

that's the point of this entry! there! right there!!! the statement in red! i just noticed how irresponsible i have become... putting everything off which can be done today... i have been prone to procrastination and just seem to have a carefree life... i shouldn't be this way! i mean, i know my potentials, i know i can do better... but why not do it? in fact, why put it off?! i'm lazy... so lazy that the moment i plop down my bed i fall asleep right away! why does life have to have so many pressure?? (that didn't sound right...) why does life have to be fast paced?! i want to take it leisurely... one step at a time... not meeting deadlines and rushing everything!!!

anyway, calvin have it easy... the way his problems are presented... the way naughtiness comes to him naturally and he seem not to care about it... i wish my life was a comic strip... short and safe.. by safe i mean, when there's an error, it can be corrected right away, there's always the eraser and the choice of redoing the whole thing... oh well... that's life...

wish me luck for my finals!

ad campaign

today is the day we presented our ad campaign presentation for our filipi1 course... i wore a business attire that guys wear with the long sleeves and tie... i love it! really had fun with it.. :P

Mina Manash Spa and Beauty Center... Go Beyond Beauty...

our output which we edited over and over again wasn't really that bad... it went quite good... i was nervous when i presented the tag line, selling line and jingle. i was trying not to pan the audience and focus on the prof and a friend of his who were the judges for the presentation, but i couldn't help but pan the audience... total black out came to me... good thing i got the paper on hand... but still i paused quite a few times and neglected to mention some other stuff.

this is a memory made in DLSU with my fellow groupmates JB, Dan and Luis and our leader, Matthew for the first term. and i'm sorry guys.... i messed up... big time! anyway, i still say that we did well... i had fun doing it with you guys! :D thanks!

memories

the whole day... i have done nothing but look over my rhgp project last school year... my version of our class album... gosh.... i know i have been bitten by mr. sentimental bug again... (is there such thing?!) anyway, early in the morning, i browse thru it... looking at the ill-printed nice pics... really, i should have had it all printed... the names of the people and flipping over the messages... i wasn't really reading them because i still got a clear memory of what was written... the likes of: "malapit na graduation...", "walang limutan a!", "thanks", "college..." and so on... it was what you can call, obvious, cliches...

during our break, i repeatedly went over our class album... now reading the messages... first the short ones as i know they contain almost the same stuff... "good luck","thanks" and the likes... simple yet very meaningful and heart-filling... there... then we continued on to class... the album... still in my bag...

when we were about to listen to a talk about our course in LS building, i was now reading quite a few, showing it to some of my seatmates... and well... i felt really proud... proud of what? proud of my batch... our batch... proud of my friends... how precious they are to me... proud of myself... for having found friends and for being a Judenite... then the talk went on...

before our philhis class, i was sitting there and now reading the messages seriously one by one... i almost found myself crying because of the messages... i really am lucky because of the friends i have found... the people who made a change in my life... as i read thru them... i found words... cliche maybe but touching and true... "lagi ako nandito pag may problema ka...", "walang limutan pag college a!", "hope we will always be good friends...", "we're about to end a chapter of our lives...", "lapit na grad! la na chinese...", "thanks", "tanda mo pa...?", "wag ka magbabago a...", "i'm glad i met you...", "wish to get to know you better...", "ingats lagi...", "love yah..."

funny how certain words have so much impact to me... i mean, those are simply words written by different people on a piece of paper (bubblegum note pads)... funny how words can make me shed tears... funny how simple words can bring so much memories... funny how we spent each time together and never thought we would be looking back at them... funny how i miss you guys so much... some people have already move on... now living new lives... but why can't i move on?

am i too attached to the past???

things that make me think

there are things that simply makes you remember stuff that you don't want to think about anymore... for me... here are some things that really let my heart thump and my tears flow...

1. rain
the rain is very depressing. a lot of memories have been spent there and it all seems like fun-filled memories but now... they are really just memories... happy memories yet sad memories too... i miss the pillow fight in our car when we were in grade 6. me and my best friend back then were having a pillow fight in our car while waiting for my brother to finish his lunch. why pillow fight? i was about to take his picture when he suddenly threw a throw pillow at me! it was about minutes long before we stopped... i miss that fun... i miss my friend...

and there's that time that i rushed thru the rain just to give my current best friend is things because he was absent from class. although i was soaking wet, i felt good that i helped him out... i miss you... you know who you are...

and there's my passion, photography under the rain... oh, did i mention that the summer before third year during my birthday it was raining hard... i went to our patio and swear, i was texting my friend and i was crying real hard... i was also soaking wet then because the wind was going to my direction. a lot of painful memories are now formed from happy memories... but i guess that's how it should be...

2. some songs and some stories
some songs that i can relate to... there are those songs played over and over again and i just can't stop but listen and really feel the song... put it in my heart and sometimes it causes my tears to flow down...

then there are thos stories... heart breaking ones... hay... such sweet endings... i sometimes wish that life is a story... everyone can write the plot of their own stories... but i guess that would never work out since everybody doesn't want the same thing... everyone has their own wants and desires...

3. messages
particularly text messages... my mobile can hold a lot of text messages... hundreds in fact! but can you believe that i can fill those with just messages from one person? i keep messages that i feel are so important to me because them encourage me and empower me to continue to live on... sometimes when i feel down, i just browse thru my inbox, my folders and the likes... read some messages from friends and there you go, i am pushed to continue to live life to the fullest. i always have a hard time to erase some messages in my phone...

even though sometimes i feel like breaking down and have no one to talk to, i open some letters from friends from way back i was in grade 2 (promise, nasa akin pa mga letters niyo) read some to make me feel happy... happy to know that those people who i called my friends back then are still my friends now... and then there's the rhgp project last school year and the recoletters from dear friends... sometimes i cry just by reading those letters... swear...

4. friends
now here's something i can never live without... they serve as my inspiration... swear... i think i can never do anything without these guys... i know that what ever happens they are right there, behind me, cheering for me... i really feel so lucky that even though i dont have a particular clique and all i got are close friends and my best friend, i know that these guys are my treasures... they are the best among everyone else! i love you guys!!! believe it or not, when i don't get to see them for a while and i suddenly see them... gosh... i cry... like the first mass this year in sjcs... when i sw that most of our batchmates returned... ask the people around me... i cried! i looked like an idiot there... crying my eyes out... know why? because i found my treasures again... my gems in life... the reason why my life is so glittery! :D

so, those are the things that make me think... think deep and cry... i'm becoming to be such a crybaby!!!

songs i love

Inside Your Heaven -- Bo Bice
I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

Oh wow... i have fallen in love with this song... i kept on playing and playing it non stop and if it were a cd, the cd must be worn out by now... i really love Bo Bice!


I've Fallen For You -- Jamie Rivera

What is this i'm feelin'
I just can't explain
When you're near,I'm just not the same.
I try to hide it,Try not to show it.
It's crazy how could it be

CHORUS
I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And i'm fallen in love
I fin'lly know
How it feels
When you said hello,
I looked in your eyes.
Suddenly, I felt good inside.
Is this really happ'nin?
Or am I just dreaming?
I guess, it's true.
I can't believe
I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in.
And I'm fallen in love
I fin'lly know how it feels
So this is love...

Doesn't matter where I am,
Thoughts of you still linger in my mind
No matter what time of day
I've really, really
Fallen for you...

Now I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in.
And I'm fallen in love
I fin'lly know how it feels
I've fallen for you finally, my heart gave in.
And I'm fallen in love...
I fin'lly know how it feels...so this is love.....

this one is just nice... simply nice... i love it!

addicted...

newbie!!!

wow!!! after a very long time i finally changed my layout! ok... i envied Kathy Go's layout so i decided to adopt somewhat the same one.. :P so sue me... anyway... i will find time to renew my layout again... i got 3 layouts in line... i'll just wait for the perfect moment to change it again... :D

anyway, it has again been a very rainy day... bad thing is, our block was driven to wear business attire to dlsu because we will get plus five for our trigsol test... five points is big for a math test... trust me! anyway, there... my feet ache because of the shoes, as if im not always wearing high heeled everyday... anyway, everything still seems to be the same as any ordinary day... go to dlsu, go home, sit in front of the pc and type away.. but i changes my blog layout... isn't it nice? :P i want to thank the designer... :P

anyway, that's it... so, expect to see a tremendous change again next time... maybe during our term break or it will be on december already... nothing much really...

"when the rain falls, it feels like heaven's crying..."
crying is not an option... i wish it was... so i wouldn't have to feel this way...

simply bummed

i simply don't have time for this... but anyway... so far i have done nothing but be busy busy and busy... you could say with the finals coming the the semester ending i have done nothing but be a busy body. time really flies even though you're not having fun... imagine, it's just like yesterday thatwe graduated from sjcs... heck! i still miss sj!!! what's wrong with me anyway? anyway, not only that... i found myself singing our graduation song "Parting Will" and our alma mater song, "SJCS Hymn" awhile ago together with Ian in the conservatory, north wing... weird isn't it?! we were singing our batch's version of the SJCS Hymn... anyway... not only that... i miss our never ending editing for speech class... ... ... although some may loathe and despise it... that's my favorite part in speech! anyway, i am currently in the process of editing a video file 15 seconds long and an audio file supposedly 20 seconds long for our ad campaign presentation for our Filipino class... bummed... why? because it's not like what we did in highschool... in high school, we were recording as a group... about 6 people in a group will be going to a house and spend hours and hours of endless entertainment but still get the job done... not like in college where only a few people is in a group and there's the very short notice in doing it. in short, despite all these things that i am supposed to do, i still can't stop thinking that we are not any more in sj... that we went on and moved on to a much bigger institution where you simply don't have the chance to know everyone in the campus. i still can't stop comparing everything to sj... is it the post-sj syndrome? heck! sabihin niyo nga if you also feel the same way!!! i feel like i'm a stupid creature who keeps on going back to the past...

really... i miss everyone... miss sj and most of all... i miss my best friend!!! sobra!!! i feel like breaking down na... i want to cry but i can't... someone once told me "bakit hindi ka umiyak?" gosh... kung kaya ko lang di ba?! but my pride just can't be lowered...

ayan... umuulan nanaman...

tagged...

i've been tagged!!!! the next person i tag needs to answer the two questions too! :D

What are the things you enjoy even when no one around you wants to go out and play?

i blog!!! hahahah!! isn't it obvious?! anyway, not just blogging... i also love writing fics... all kind of fics... then there's the never ending ym... downloading countless mp3s... then the sound trippings... what else is there? there's also the doing of assignments... sleeping, tv and staring into nothing thing... :D

What lowers your stress/ blood pressure/ anxiety level?
photography... love it!!! then there's tv... sleepinh, mindless logging on the net... that kind of stuff... then there's my beloved journal... baking... texting... skateboarding... and crochet... but of course there's also shopping... non stop shopping!!! and now, there's CRIMSONLAND!!!

next person i'm gonna tag... herschel!!! :D

birthday bash!

a rainy day... almost non stop actually... anyway, spent the day at Haze's house again, like we usually do during our spare time... :D

tonight... went to golden fortune. i was informed by Kathy Go that there will be a surprise for Jubilee there. by the way, this is the reason why i didn't greet her here last 04 August which was her true birthday. we were trying to keep very quiet in our room next to theirs at first... we were part of the surprise ata e... dunno... :P anyway, i was late... in fact, very late! everything was cold even the hot tea but the room was hot... i mean, the aircon was on but it was exhausting hot air... anyway, when we asked the waiter to adjust the aircon, it suddenly freezed the room! talking about one extreme to another! anyway, when everything was set and Jubi was about to enter the room, we were scattered in the room, anticipating her to open the door and see what we have in store for her. a simple surprise party no doubt! :D anyway, the moment she entered, we were singing happy birthday to her and threw cloudfuls of confetti... hahahah!!! we asked her to make a wish and blew out all the candles... when she blew them off, we (i mean mark and i) were starting to act like little children bopping each other with balloons! hahahhaa!!! i dunno, i think osmond has a record of it... it's called world war 6 i guess... i don't know why 6 but... oh well... :P oh well, then we ate the cake.. :D yummy! :D happy birthday Jubi... :D then we went on to picture takings! then it's back to balloon bopping!!! gyahahahhaa!!!! then we played a spanking game... oh my, were my hands red!!! in short, i lost big time!!! gyahahahahaha!!!! anyway, then it was thumb wrestling... my thumb is too short and his thumb was too tall!!! in short, i lost again!!! ok... it was basically us who were playing there... i'm already 18! and i still act like a little kid!!! i guess nothing will change... :P

my whole day was fun! wish i could have another day with my high school pals... it just ain't right without them... :D so, that's it...

Happy 18th Birthday Jubi!!!

pics...

mama tep's debut

most beloved retreat

speechfest

star city

graduation

cwts

butterfly

mike and me

sentimental

ok... perhaps i have been too sentimental these past few days... remembering the retreat i had with the people i feel so attached to... i think i really have it bad! but for one last time to reminicse this great event in my life for this year... let me have it this way...

Mark and I were having our morning walk across the boundaries of the retreat house after a heavy breakfast. we were talking seriously about what happened the night before, "hawak ko nga yung bimpo ko tapos ganito ako o... *punching two knuckles together*" "hahahah!!! nervous ka!!!" right... i was nervous... "bili tayo cookies dun sa..." nature was the only thing around us... it surrounded us and i felt like we were lost, but we were not. when we returned, "mark! mysh! picture kayo!" we had our picture taken by Kathy Go. then the mass... readings, songs, offertories, and so it goes... last songs... "at the beginning", "if we hold on together"... we cried... no, they cried... i have no more tears that time because all my tears were dried up from the night before... then we went on the bus... on to our merry way back to sj... Maxi and I were sitting beside each other, having my haro with me, we slept on the ride home...

imagine if we were still in fourth year... imagine if we were still up in Tagaytay... imagine if we were still crying our hearts out... imagine if nothing changed... imagine if we hadn't move on...

we would still be in our high school uniforms, polo and green pants for the guys and long sleeves with neck tie and green skirt for the gals... we would still be wearing our ids instead of keeping them inside our wallets... we would still be asked to cut our fingernails and for the boys to have their haircut... we would still be suffering in loads full of Chinese to memorize... we would still be wearing our school pins... we would still be having lunch in the same fifth floor with our peers which is now installed with electric fans... we would still be with each other...

time flies and things change... i changed a lot since our retreat... my outlook in life... my feelings for the people around me... my faith... my trust in people... almost eveything changed... i grew...

there's a lot of things that has happened after our retreat, you guys took the upcat the weekend after our retreat, then other college entrance exams followed, admu, dlsu, ustet and csb... then the speechfest... the sportsfest... the last mass... the last lunch... the final periodical tests in sj... the pre-graduation mass... the graduation... the summer outings... gosh, and we went our separate ways...

i still can't get over the fact that we're now in college... busy with our own scheds... meeting new friends... in contact thru e-mail, phone or text messages only... we don't see each other's faces each and everyday... i don't have the chance to give you guys some of my home baked pastries... meeting some people once a week only or sometimes even none...

here's my message to my fellow batchmates:
even though time and distance keeps us apart, you will always be number one in my heart... as one friend once told me... "hindi na ako magbbye kahit kelan..." i will always be here for you guys... miss ya all!

this marks the day

hey fellow batchmates! specially 4A people... yesterday marks the day! of what? of our retreat silly!!! yesterday, it was officially one year since we had our retreat in Tagaytay.

anyway, the people in my phone book were able to receive a forwarded message from me last night... hope it was not a bother to you guys... and some even received a message from me after my impromptu speech in class. heck, if i could only go back to that time... i would... a thousand or a million times more! i miss it... last night i was on cloud nine.. i couldn't sleep nor coud i stop thinking. i thought about my diad with maxi exactly one year ago... the things we talked about and how some of our classmates reacted when we were paired up because they said that we were already close... which was partly true because we were classmates in prep and we were pretty ok during second year... anyway, that's not the point... we had fun talking with each other... though it brought tears to me because... i don't know... :)) then the reco letters... the never ending reco letters... i didn't have time to read it again last night... but i have read it a thousand times before during the summer... together with my album of highschool. anyway, i thought about the yoga thing this morning... i have forgotten everything! Paulo M.! teach us again! :D then there's the lectures and the songs... wah... i really miss it... how fast time flies when you're having fun? no... how time flies when you miss the past... then by now we are on our second diad... i was with johann this time... we talked about a lot of stuff and we even tried to pull a trick on porman, feeding him unknown seeds... (good thing he didn't swallow it though :P) we were like talking about anything under the sun... anyway, then later on we are supposed to share our insights for the class... this is really tear jerking!!! i mean, everyone was crying, hankies were all wet and tissues were all over the place... not to mention we were all in our jammies!!! gyahahahaha!!! :)) we looked cute!!! anyway, another thing, after the sharing, we had our midnight snack in the cafeteria... chocolate strawberries! :D gyahahahhaa!!! pringles and stuff galore! all of us were there, enjoying our midnight snack like one big family... then tomorrow will be our last day... the tear jerking mass and the farewell to Tagaytay and return to our SJ lives... but before all that, i wouldn't forget my morning walk with mark! :D

i miss the meals! in our table, i was pushing vegetables up their throats because i don't eat veggies! anyway, the whole class will be praying together like one big family... and guess what?! our room... i forgot the key inside and locked the door!!! gyahahahaha!!! sorry again kartier and jubi! :D that was stupid of me... :D anyway, what else? the yummy buco pie... i wouldn't forget that!!! it's a part of the retreat... gosh... in short, i would like to sum it up in 4 words...

i miss you guys!!!

hope to experience it one more time... it just isn't the same without you...