Hey Dear,

I'm doing fine thank you very much… Since you've left, I've been spending more time at home, more time resting and more time stressing out on all the adult responsibilities that I should have been taking care of even when you were still here… 

All my life, I have been an adult. You know this, you were the one who gave me the heaviest responsibility of all, to take care of my brother. Yes, I still remember this. And ever since I entered my Alma Mater, this is all that has been enforced on me. Now that my brother is not even on my side, this is still a continuous responsibility that I have to bear. This is inescapable already, it's like it's my fate and the reason I was born.

But hey, I don't mind it that much since this sole responsibility showed me how to be independent. Along with, of course, the days at the office where I had to do all the things that everyone else is doing with equal capabilities even though they are much much older than me, and all the expectations that everyone has of me ever since I was a child. These expectations are really not going away, in fact, they've accumulated over the years. Sure, they are pressuring me and are haunting me in every step of the way, but once I have achieve one of them, I feel very much proud of myself.

Hey dear, I never realized that I would miss you this much… as in every waking moment and every minute I spend outside my room, every time that I am walking out of the main door, and every time I come back home. You have been a big part of my life and have been a big influence on me. I will surely save you a special place on all the important events that will come in my life in the future. 

Thanks dear… 

conservatism

hey, I need to vent out somewhere since I stopped tweeting… :))

Anyway, I read a blog of a friend of mine reminiscing about high school (it was an old entry… about 3 years ago I think) anyway, it kinda got me thinking… no, not about what I did and what happened during those years, but how much I've changed since then…

then : I never go out of the house and spend time in movies and restaurants with friends

now : Well, let's just say that I am going back to the old times for various reasons… :)

then : I would go straight home after school, watch TV, eat dinner then sleep early and wake up early

now : I loll around at the mall, go spend time in the gym before I go home… earliest would be at around six pm… watch TV, go online, spend way too much time on Facebook, eat dinner, watch more TV and sleep super late… as in dawn kinda late and wake up late!

then : I would never never never be late for anything. Even during my first few years in college

now : I am always late at appointments, late in going to school… well, you get the picture

then : I would never think of going anywhere for over nights if it wasn't school related

now : I want to go away every weekend!!!

then : I never travel alone

now : I'm often alone… haha, it's a choice. :)

then : I never shop for clothes and I always wear big ones

now : I can't seem to stop shopping… O_O

a review : Can't Be Tamed by Miley Cyrus

This is my very first review here of anything and it's of Miley Cyrus' latest album… why?

Here's why!!!

When I first heard Can't Be Tamed from E! News, I thought, "hey, Miley's finally growing up". With the video, the peacock costume and everything… I thought, that she's actually breaking from her squeaky clean Disney princess image… yes, I did use the words "Disney princess" on Miley…

Today, I had the chance to listen to the whole album. Guess what!? DISAPPOINTED! Why? For a lot of people, her Can't Be Tamed is so controversial, for me, it's a new sound from her… a change, a drastic one at that and I came to like her music… she's grown out of the country bumpkin type or the sterotypical pop type kinda girl… BUT! her whole album is still the same!!!

Can't Be Tamed is the only song that's different!!! really now… I feel like the song did not fit in with the other songs… She still sounds like a Disney girl… kinda like Demi Lovato… but Demi's vocals are way better because Miley still has that nasally sound… I am not a hater… it's just that her album is… ugh… disappointed me… :(

Oh, and her album is not the good kinda Disney… I prefer Sterling Knight's StarStruck performances and songs over her album!! O_O