Wednesday, July 01, 2009
I'm just too depressed right now... to even think about what I'm really feeling...
Most people say that to forget someone, you need another person into your life... but that's not always true... for me it wasn't true this time around...
Pathetic... need a drink...
strawberry :3
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Sunday, November 09, 2008
I really don't feel like I have a life right now. Specially since my life just revolves around school stuff right now. I really don't have the chance to just go out and have fun. When I do go out, it always seem to be related to school stuff in one way or another. No drinks, no movies, no games... just medicals, interviews and lots and lots of logic tests! (which i am very proud to say that i got a 93% and a 95%!!!) Seems na ngayon ko lang natitikman ang pagiging engineering student ko!!!
It's not that I don't like what's happening. I mean, I really enjoy this stuff. At least most of what I'm doing will be very beneficial to me in the future. And this is really what I'm so looking forward to... to have a job and to grow up. Leave the school stuff and go on to the mastery of the career path that I have chosen. And I am really not regretting a single moment of it! Well, except for hte CBC test during my medical because I really really hate injections and well, my blood! haha :)
strawberry :3
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
love is not synonymous to pain, is it? like is not synonymous to rejection either... relationship is not synonymous to enemies and commitment is not synonymous to broken promises...
am i not right? but sometimes, it feels like everything above is synonymous to each other... to love is to inflict pain on oneself, to like is to throw oneself to rejection and maybe later on despair and regret, to be in a relationship is to break the friendship and to commit oneself is to break all promises made...
cooling off and talk are just nice words to cover up break up and it's just not there anymore, are they? why do we people always want to hurt ourselves by liking someone, by loving someone and giving oneself to someone to take care of? are we really socially dependent or do we just like others to think highly of us because we have someone and others don't?
one thing's for sure, people are not socially dependent. and the term independent is not given the right meaning. the term independent for me is to have no one around even when you need them. to be socially independent is to be a man stranded on a deserted island. but still he is not independent because he depends on nature to give him food, shelter and clothing. but no one can survive alone... right?
that's why i think that even the smartest person who is bounded to someone, whether his parents, his friends, colleagues or someone they love, are stupid. because being dependent means giving oneself troubles, problems and pain which they will encounter over and over again... i am stupid... forgive me.
strawberry :3
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Thursday, June 05, 2008
i really miss this blog of mine... i remember the days when i post an entry almost every day or sometimes twice a day... it's like my best friend wherein i post every single one of my thoughts without thinking that someone might read it because for me, this is my paradise... but now, i don't think anyone even remembers this blog... but still, i post my inner thoughts in it, things that i like, things that are important to me and things that i feel guilty about... even though i also started blogging in my multiply site...
so, today's entry isn't anything about the past... it isn't anything about what i have written before... this is a new thing... a new one...
this was supposed to be posted long ago, i think 2 weeks ago... it's really been eating me. this is the question : is it consider cheating when you had lunch with another person while you are in a relationship? or is it the thing
'what he doesn't know won't hurt him' kind? and is it considered to be cheating when it is with an 'almost' much younger but more mature cousin? and this cousin is also in a relationship... but the lunch is nothing like any ordinary lunch out with anyone... it kinda turned out to be a...
date?...
*SIGH*
strawberry :3
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i wonder if anyone still visits this blog...
anyway, i had this dream the other night, 11 May 2008. Actually, i don't really understand why i had this dream at all but anyway, i want too post it here.
We were in an electronics class, at first, i was with my usual college laboratory class with all my college classmates. The teacher asked us to plant a seed instead of making our project. He asked us to look for a flowering plant that can be found within the books that surrounded us and ask the technician for the seed. The first one that I planted was surrounded by strawberries so i changed the soil. the next one was too flooded but i didn't care and left the seed to grow. the technician then asked me to find a book in the library but someone found it before me. when i returned to the lab, i saw maxi painting something and that he spilled ferric chloride on the floor. i approached him to help him clean it up but saw his painting. he was painting a scene with something to put in between... i really didn't understand. then someone kicked me hard, a person, let's call him 'past', was sitting beside maxi with a girl that i knew. i told him to stop it since i wasn't minding him at all. then he said he wanted to talk to me so we went outside to talk. before he even said a word, i woke up...
its really strange why he was in my dream again after more than a year now...
strawberry :3
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
happy new year! well, its not really the start of the new year but it's just now that I had the time to update my blog or do anything at all.
Anyway, spent my Christmas vacation in Cagayan de Oro. During the first week, we went to different places. we went to the caves, to Bukidnon, to Duka bay and lastly we went rafting! It was fun, fun and fun! after my uncle and my aunt went back home, i spent the remaining 1 week helping out my aunt with the business. each night that i got home, i really, really need a bath! and that means 2 times with the soap just to get the smell or stench out. nag amuy sibuyas, bawang, banana blossom, chlorine, tawas and paminta ako!!! wah! but it was fun! :D
of course, my stay there didn't have to be boring even though there is no time to use the computer, surf the net or watch tv. At night, before i go to bed, i have a book with me. Anyway, it didn't have to be boring because i have this series of shopping sprees. :D i had only 2 actually. :D
So when i went there, i only brought a duffel bag or an over night bag for my clothes. but when i went back here last jan 5, my clothes were a duffel bag and a mandarin orange box! haha :P And from my usual 2 phones, i brought home 3! hehe, so it was a Happy Christmas and a happy new year! :D
To share the experience with you, please go to my
multiply for my pictures! :D thanks!
and now, its back to school and reading manga :P
strawberry :3
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Now that Christmas break is about to start (because today is dooms day number uncountable), I now have enough time to watch my series, shop and read manga. I watched Da Capo, although I'm not yet done with it.
And there's something I can't understand again. Not that I have understood it already, but it just came back to haunt my thoughts.
Why is it that most men are insensitive about women's feelings or why do they turn a blind eye towards it so that the gals "won't get hurt"? In Da Capo, this girl Kotori did everything for the main guy because she likes him. Not that she wants something in return, but she did all that because she loves him and she wants him to be safe and healthy. Since he was an irresponsible guy, she passes by his house to cook him food, clean his house, do his laundry etc. But then, when this guy's "sister" (orphaned by his family but not really blood related and has become his lover) returned from college, he wents back chasing this girl. Now, Kotori, the girl who was by his side while his sister was away, is now being shunned. Not in the sense of a cold shoulder, but in the sense that she wasn't that much entertained already by the guy. She understood. But because she loves the guy, she can't help but to get hurt. She sacrifices stuff, like fun, for her not to cause any problems for the guy. She says that seeing him happy makes him happy.
Now, the thing I don't really understand is that why do guys, even though they know that the girl likes them already, still persist on making her his "friend". Do they think that it is the best way in order not to hurt the girls? Or sometimes, they ignore them. Do they think that not confronting the problem is the best way to solve things? Why don't they just say it directly and let the girl decide what she wants to do with the situation?
Hay... nevermind this post. :P
strawberry :3
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Monday, September 03, 2007
BOO!
i guess i'm back... for now anyway. first sem is over and i can't say its been easy because its not! with all the prof watching our every move in all our labs... oh well, can't blame them, we disobeyed a lot of times and i guess they just snapped. now, tomorrow's course card day, doomsday number 9 for me... haha :P
anyway, just this friday, i finally got enrolled in a driving school! thank GOD!!! haha! and since saturday, i have been learning how to handle an automobile. been driving for 4 hours now... not much progress but i guess no one would be interested since driving is not supposed to be a new thing for a 20 year old! gosh!!! haha! :P
so anyway, nothing has been happening much... oh yeah, i've got a 1 year old bunny! haha!!! that's an accomplishment for me since all the bunnies that i've taken home seemed to die in just 4 months or less... haha!!! but this bunny is different... it molted here and right now, he's just fat, dirty and lazy! but still cute anyway :P
about cuteness, check out my
multiply and take a peek in the Cuties folder and check out the cute little babies and puppies! don't mind the pikachu pin... haha! :P
anyway, i'll just drop by again in a few months or so...
~berries 'n' cream, mysh
oh yeah, i finished watching the oc from seasons 1-4 except! except except except for season 3's season finale!!! wah! i can't find any copy of it! help me please! somebody!!! (crying out for HELP!)
strawberry :3
Monday, September 03, 2007
