"You tell me what you want and I'll be that for you!"

Thursday, May 27, 2010

You know the feeling when you are suddenly empty and you feel like you need to make a change in what you're doing and in who you are? Well, I do. And this isn't just happening for the first time, this has happened to me tons of times already. 

I sometimes just suddenly want to cut my hair in the wildest way that I could think of. Like about more than a year ago, after wearing my hair in its layered form for the longest time (nine years) I suddenly decided to put full bangs. Sure, it wasn't extreme. But it didn't stop there. I cut my hair short after wearing it long for nine years… and I kept on cutting it the moment it grew longer to a certain length. I don't know why but cutting my hair felt like I was changing a big part of me. 

Then after swearing off coloring my hair for five years, last March, I got it dyed in a supposedly bright red shade. Well, it turned out like a brownish shade. I simply wanted to change something about myself. 

And now it's the nails and my eyes… I want black polished nails and black eye shadow. I know, trashy right? haha, and I'm just waiting for my hair to grow just a bit more then have it bleached then dyed in a bright red color. It might not be me, but hey, I'll get used to how I will look as time passes. 

Clothes too make a big big difference. I often change my style from time to time, mood to mood and well, color preference. It's like I have this color for the season or something. I'm over the red and black phase in my clothes. I'm not in my white and purple stage. 

Hats! are very very important to me. I used to have this baseball cap craze, then the fisherman's hat, then the berets… now I'm with the fedoras, the panamas and the ivy caps!!! 

Change… the only constant thing in life… 

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

argh! how come after 10 years of feeling giddy about May 4, this year it's gone and changed into plain frustration?!??!?! 

how come I cannot just talk to you?!??!!