simply bummed

i simply don't have time for this... but anyway... so far i have done nothing but be busy busy and busy... you could say with the finals coming the the semester ending i have done nothing but be a busy body. time really flies even though you're not having fun... imagine, it's just like yesterday thatwe graduated from sjcs... heck! i still miss sj!!! what's wrong with me anyway? anyway, not only that... i found myself singing our graduation song "Parting Will" and our alma mater song, "SJCS Hymn" awhile ago together with Ian in the conservatory, north wing... weird isn't it?! we were singing our batch's version of the SJCS Hymn... anyway... not only that... i miss our never ending editing for speech class... ... ... although some may loathe and despise it... that's my favorite part in speech! anyway, i am currently in the process of editing a video file 15 seconds long and an audio file supposedly 20 seconds long for our ad campaign presentation for our Filipino class... bummed... why? because it's not like what we did in highschool... in high school, we were recording as a group... about 6 people in a group will be going to a house and spend hours and hours of endless entertainment but still get the job done... not like in college where only a few people is in a group and there's the very short notice in doing it. in short, despite all these things that i am supposed to do, i still can't stop thinking that we are not any more in sj... that we went on and moved on to a much bigger institution where you simply don't have the chance to know everyone in the campus. i still can't stop comparing everything to sj... is it the post-sj syndrome? heck! sabihin niyo nga if you also feel the same way!!! i feel like i'm a stupid creature who keeps on going back to the past...

really... i miss everyone... miss sj and most of all... i miss my best friend!!! sobra!!! i feel like breaking down na... i want to cry but i can't... someone once told me "bakit hindi ka umiyak?" gosh... kung kaya ko lang di ba?! but my pride just can't be lowered...

ayan... umuulan nanaman...