orange mirage

orange mirage!

shooting thru my head

wonder what it is

i never want it to end

oasis right in front of me

wonder how far

is it real

or is it hoax

il never know

until i see the orange mirage

again

what about the blue sky

infinite and yet reachable

clear but not clear

blackened with grey soot

nowhere to go

but the oasis ahead

i never wanted to go

but then it was there

i went there and fell

into the deep blue lake

i cant escape and yet

it feels so wonderful

to be there

alone

and then i cant breath

i want to escape

it let me

but i cant

i cant tear away

from it

sad sad me

how i long to live

and yet the lake kept me alive

but in pain

and more pain

let me go

let me free once again

i dont want to suffer anymore

there you go

you are free to go

but why cant you leave

i ask that myself

i feel so happy and yet so much in pain

theres just so much of the lake

i cant get enough of it

hopefully i will let go

and leave the oasis very soon

but then once it appears

once again

i know i will fall in again

until that day comes

i will leave myself to myself

i wont give myself up

to anything else

oh wonderful oasis

its sad you came into my life

but then without you

i have no more reason

to live i saw the mirage

whole day long

i felt my heart skip

and my feet stop

i felt cold

for awhile

but then it was you

the lake once again

i thought you were gone

and never coming back

but then you're here

haunting me again

it hurts me to see you

but then it hurts me not to

why did you came into

my life

you made it happy

and yet miserable

you come and go

leaving me in pain

aren't you tired of hurting me again and again

im tired of you

or the lies you told me

you led me on

and yet

im so stupid to believe

i wanted so much to just forget you

leave you as a painful past

and yet you keep coming back

and the truth arises

i cant leave you

or forget about you

i cant live without you

my little crystal clear lake

it pains me to see you go once again

but then a bit happy still

i really dont know what to think

theres nothing around me

but the orange mirage once again