i'm giving up

i know quitters never win...

but i really don't know what to do anymore... i'm giving up whether i like it or not... i don't know what to do or what to think anymore... it's like everything that i did never really meant anything... it's hard... i won't just stand or sit here and wait... it's useless... i must do something... i must move on... but...

i miss sj... that's all there is...