sacrifices... destiny... and sound trips

hahahaha!!! that's a weird title! :D

sacrifices... what do i mean by that? in life, we have a lot of sacrifices to do... we have to sacrifice sleep to do some assignments or work... we need to sacrifice emotions for the sake of others... we need to sacrifice distance for the betterment (? im inventing words ata... ) of others... we need to sacrifice tv time for studying... we need to sacrifice chatting for work load... we need to sacrifice having fun to understand life... everyday, we sacrifice some stuff in order to do something better. we sacrifice not because we want to... but because we need to... we let go of old stuff to give way to the new... the question is... is it all worth it? i mean, why can't we just to both without sacrificing the other? why do we always have sadness when we first have happiness? when i was young and naive... i laughed when our teacher told us that life is a wheel... we have our up moments and later on we have our downs... it isn't always up... it isn't always down... i don't know why life is like that... is it because of wrong decisions? that we first enjoy something then later on regret doing it? why? because we are only humans and we are not perfect? wow... now, i'm not laughing at what our teacher said... i'm pondering at it... problems now come from different corners... they're everywhere! haunting me all the way from when i open my eyes til i go to sleep... i know i'm not the only one... everyone have problems and most probably my problems are just puny compared to others... but it's hard to pretend that you're always happy... that you are like worry-free but in fact, you are crying yourself to sleep every night... that you can't say anything to others because you are the one they are counting on to be strong and to be approachable. sure, i am cheerful... but it doesn't mean that i don't have any problems... let's face it... this is my blog... you will know me more here... i am weak... very weak in fact... i can't even handle a simple yes or no question without regretting what i decided on... i'm weak... but i don't want to show it to people... because i want that weakness to go away... i want it to just disappear... but sometimes when i just can't take it... i simply walk away... a friend once told me to laugh at my problems, turn my back on them and it will go... yes, i still do that... but it comes back haunting me... cause i know what i did is not right...

destiny... is there really such thing? i just read a forwarded text message saying that you can choose who to care for but you can't choose who to fall for because it's destiny. it made me think... is there really such thing as destiny? if there is, why don't we know what our destiny hold??? it's like saying that there is a future in front of us but we are not certain if it is really possible... what's destiny anyway?

sound trips... hahahah!!! ngayon lang ulit! gosh... all my mp3s are obsolete! even my cds here are really old... 1940's pa yung iba!!! anyway, i love the oldies... just finished listening to "love hurts" by bon jovi and now i'm listening to "could be wrong" by mymp... but why am i listening? it's because i don't feel like doing anything tonight... i want to do some relaxation even for a little while during the weekend after finishing a hard week... anyway, during my sound trip tonight, i found some songs...
> "thank you for loving me" by bon jovi -- perfect song!!! gosh!!! it almost brought tears...
> "i'll be there for you" by bon jovi -- sweet!!!
> "dream without you" by mymp -- touching...
> "the day you said goodbye" -- just heard it in the mall awhile ago while i was window shopping... i'm not even sure of the title!!! :)) it's nice...
> "forever" by damage -- the ultimate!!! gosh!!! it's my all time favorite!!! forever!!!
> a song that's something like "you love me but you don't know who i am..." i really like that line... i don't know why... but i just like the song... :D
> "stay the same" by joey mcintyre -- it's another perfect song... gosh... it made me cry like a dozen times already!!!
> "brown eyes" by destiny's child -- it's like... ewan ko kung bakit... just love the song!
> "untitled" by simple plan -- i'm in love with this song!!! and i mean really in love!!!
> "how close is heaven" by los lonely boys -- i like this song ever since bo bice sang it! :D
> "halaga" by parokya ni edgar -- i'm speechless... simply speechless...

still am sound tripping! :D