wow, napakatagal ko na hindi naka post! it even passed my birthday! well, i have forgotten about removing the counter for a while and now it's gone... oh well, another year, another age and should be a lot wiser! well, i am wiser, much wiser than i was 3 months ago i think. anyway...
been hook in an Alex Cross novel again. thanks for the big bad wolf Nic and Cortet! anyway, i love it! well, i still don't know what's the deal with Pasha and why he is kidnapping women and killing them... but, i'm halfway there, besides, i know the name of the mastermind already! it's really a page turner try to read James Patterson's Alex Cross series! it's really fun! anyway, i haven't read only 4 more books out of the 11 books (as of now). and only got 3 books thanks to jing, nic and cortet! haha! :D
really now, i have watched the Da Vinci Code and X-men III. unfortunately, i'm not that satisfied with the first one mentioned. care to explain it anyone? haha! it's because i read the book. x-men on the other hand was fascinating! i had lots of fun watching it! but here's the gruesome thing... logan and jean?! wtf!!! ewww! worst pair! kitty and iceman... come on! rouge is better than her anytime of the day... oh well, pairing... not really an x-men thing but... haha! that's who i am! anyway, the movie's really good and i simply can't wait for the real last stand!
what am i blabbering in here for?! i've got to study my phyeng2 assignment already... we meet at 7 and it simply sucks my brain out! 7-8 then 8-11 is lbyphy2! i still haven't bought the manual! and even a measly 10 minute break is... oh well, that's my nasty schedule. oh yeah, before that, the big bad wolf is waiting!!! my bookmark is burning through the pages and my hands are itching to get hold of it again! ja ne!
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Thursday, May 18, 2006
serious summer
i seriously have to enjoy my 4 days of summer! Because of summer classes and org responsibilities, only have 4 days of summer vacation. seriously, could things get any better?! anyway, how can i enjoy it? it's cloudy outside, there's a chill in the air and rainy season is almost here. wow, the greatest summer vacation ever, really.
well, i have accomplish much more things than the usual summers that i had. first off, i got a satisfying 2.0 for my engcal2 summer class. then, had a bad streak of cooking shrimps, crabs and baking breads and pies. then there's also the pilates workout which really is great! i mean for the first few days everytime i got out of bed, i couldn't feel my legs, arms or even my back. but now, even though i do it twice a day, nothing happens. which also helps my in badminton. i also tried out a day in slimmer's world. it was fun! as in it was my first time in an actual gym and i enjoyed it! the feeling was great and i want to be a member in it, anyone with a generous heart want to give me Php 40,000.00 for my birthday? :P kidding! anyway, what else did i accomplish? i'm really proud to say that my fiction is finally done! i love it not because i'm the author but because i fell in love writing it! i know that sounds silly but... that's the way it is. and of course, the best thing that ever happened, i got my student's permit!
now next week is the start of my second year in college. whoopie! i'm getting older! and i feel older! haha! no sarcasm there, i feel like i'm the child way back then when i wanted to have a job ASAP. well, maybe i still am a child who is in a hurry to grow up and be free from my everyday life right now. hmmm... wonder who i'll be in another 10 years. would i be the person who i really want to be? and how many more summer vacations do i have left?
well, i have accomplish much more things than the usual summers that i had. first off, i got a satisfying 2.0 for my engcal2 summer class. then, had a bad streak of cooking shrimps, crabs and baking breads and pies. then there's also the pilates workout which really is great! i mean for the first few days everytime i got out of bed, i couldn't feel my legs, arms or even my back. but now, even though i do it twice a day, nothing happens. which also helps my in badminton. i also tried out a day in slimmer's world. it was fun! as in it was my first time in an actual gym and i enjoyed it! the feeling was great and i want to be a member in it, anyone with a generous heart want to give me Php 40,000.00 for my birthday? :P kidding! anyway, what else did i accomplish? i'm really proud to say that my fiction is finally done! i love it not because i'm the author but because i fell in love writing it! i know that sounds silly but... that's the way it is. and of course, the best thing that ever happened, i got my student's permit!
now next week is the start of my second year in college. whoopie! i'm getting older! and i feel older! haha! no sarcasm there, i feel like i'm the child way back then when i wanted to have a job ASAP. well, maybe i still am a child who is in a hurry to grow up and be free from my everyday life right now. hmmm... wonder who i'll be in another 10 years. would i be the person who i really want to be? and how many more summer vacations do i have left?
Friday, May 12, 2006
one year
ang bilis nga naman talaga ng panahon...
exactly one year ago, i had my first experience of an actual picnic. japanese garden in luneta park... ok, cheap... entrance fee was a mere Php 5. but the place wasn't really that of a big deal... although it was pretty! the food didn't even really mattered for me too... it was the company i had... kurstin, porman, ann and steph lee...
we planned the picnic as a surprise birthday party for porman actually, but it seemed that almost everyone backed out at the last minute so we ended up having a picnic among us. it was fun, lots of talk about anything and everything... each of us made a promise to each other that after a year, at the same place, natupad na namin dapat yung mga promise... i really didn't have any goal at that time. i was a carefree incoming frosh in dlsu... i had no idea what i was going to meet in college so i promised that by that time, i would already be a dean's lister!
bad move. i still am not on that list... maybe the late lister... i even failed engcal1 and now taking engcal2 during the summer, whoopie! haha! :D a little sarcasm there. oh, and the second picnic didn't take place. the whole day i sat in class for 3 hours, 1 and a half for review and the other half for the brain draining multiple integral and surface sketching test... then i was off to robinson's place once again. i tell you, i have been there for a hundred times and i still don't get tired of that place! that must be my favorite mall ever! haha! oh well, then i stayed home and updated my fic... not disappointed at all that the picnic didn't take place... how could it?! it rained the whole freaking day!
right now, i would like to cross the dl goal off my list for a while. of course i will still strive hard for it but not that desperate for one because i know that the course i chose is not an easy one... my goal right now? finish my fic, meet MEMo deadline (kinukulit na ako ni bosing! boss ko parin siya kahit na ako na publication head!) and to live a healthy lifestyle... aim BMI? 18.5! or kahit na 19 ok na rin :P for that, i need to be 95lbs!!! better start moving!
exactly one year ago, i had my first experience of an actual picnic. japanese garden in luneta park... ok, cheap... entrance fee was a mere Php 5. but the place wasn't really that of a big deal... although it was pretty! the food didn't even really mattered for me too... it was the company i had... kurstin, porman, ann and steph lee...
we planned the picnic as a surprise birthday party for porman actually, but it seemed that almost everyone backed out at the last minute so we ended up having a picnic among us. it was fun, lots of talk about anything and everything... each of us made a promise to each other that after a year, at the same place, natupad na namin dapat yung mga promise... i really didn't have any goal at that time. i was a carefree incoming frosh in dlsu... i had no idea what i was going to meet in college so i promised that by that time, i would already be a dean's lister!
bad move. i still am not on that list... maybe the late lister... i even failed engcal1 and now taking engcal2 during the summer, whoopie! haha! :D a little sarcasm there. oh, and the second picnic didn't take place. the whole day i sat in class for 3 hours, 1 and a half for review and the other half for the brain draining multiple integral and surface sketching test... then i was off to robinson's place once again. i tell you, i have been there for a hundred times and i still don't get tired of that place! that must be my favorite mall ever! haha! oh well, then i stayed home and updated my fic... not disappointed at all that the picnic didn't take place... how could it?! it rained the whole freaking day!
right now, i would like to cross the dl goal off my list for a while. of course i will still strive hard for it but not that desperate for one because i know that the course i chose is not an easy one... my goal right now? finish my fic, meet MEMo deadline (kinukulit na ako ni bosing! boss ko parin siya kahit na ako na publication head!) and to live a healthy lifestyle... aim BMI? 18.5! or kahit na 19 ok na rin :P for that, i need to be 95lbs!!! better start moving!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
chris daughtry
american idol season 5... what went wrong?!
"America, you have voted..." wah!!! bakit si chris pa?! i mean, mas deserving naman siya kesa kay katharine di ba?! ang ganda ganda ng mga performance niya last night while kay katharine ugh!!! i mean, i love the hound dog performance with the all shook up mix even though she dropped a line there but her version of can't help falling in love??? pitchy! screeching and shrieking!!! don't get me wrong, i learned to love her voice... really i did pero last night's performance was suppose to kick her all the way home, away from the competition... and chris' performance was absolutely breath taking... both of them!
elliot's the ultimate last night, i must agree... and taylor's performances really did bring him to be in the top 2... but come on, chris deserves that place better than katharine!
ok, i'm going to shut up now and finally come down. when i heard chris was in the bottom 2, i sat up from my usual laid back position, grab my phone and texted mama tep... "no, not chris!" when simon said that he thinks katharine was going home, i was estatic! i mean, usually people don't agree with simon but i do... and finally when ryan annonced that chris is going home... man, i freaked!!! di pa nariring mobile ko nasagot ko na kagad kasi tatawagan ko na si tep... tears... that's all that fell...
now the question is... "who is the next american idol?" i hope elliot is... or taylor... just not katharine... please!
"America, you have voted..." wah!!! bakit si chris pa?! i mean, mas deserving naman siya kesa kay katharine di ba?! ang ganda ganda ng mga performance niya last night while kay katharine ugh!!! i mean, i love the hound dog performance with the all shook up mix even though she dropped a line there but her version of can't help falling in love??? pitchy! screeching and shrieking!!! don't get me wrong, i learned to love her voice... really i did pero last night's performance was suppose to kick her all the way home, away from the competition... and chris' performance was absolutely breath taking... both of them!
elliot's the ultimate last night, i must agree... and taylor's performances really did bring him to be in the top 2... but come on, chris deserves that place better than katharine!
ok, i'm going to shut up now and finally come down. when i heard chris was in the bottom 2, i sat up from my usual laid back position, grab my phone and texted mama tep... "no, not chris!" when simon said that he thinks katharine was going home, i was estatic! i mean, usually people don't agree with simon but i do... and finally when ryan annonced that chris is going home... man, i freaked!!! di pa nariring mobile ko nasagot ko na kagad kasi tatawagan ko na si tep... tears... that's all that fell...
now the question is... "who is the next american idol?" i hope elliot is... or taylor... just not katharine... please!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
lao shu ai da mi
this is a Chinese song that i have learned how to love since Sunday! heard it when my dad was listening to some dvds... here's the lyrics! ask me for the mp3 if you like! i am very happy to share it with everyone!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
on the road
man, do i hate my life! but there's one thing for sure... i'm afraid to die just yet...
i got my student's permit last wednesday, and everyone who has been around me saw my excitement over that very little change in my life. i still am excited about having my own car... in fact, i researched and asked the prices of the cars i would like to have. honda jazz, hyundai getz or kia picanto... really, not because it's the one i like but it's something that could fit the budget or even lower than the budget. i like one that's colored orange and has a sun roof like my dad's ford lynx!
i was excited too the first time my mom gave me the keys to start the engine of our present car. the second day when i started it, we nearly crashed onto the wall. i still thought it was funny because it didn't happen at all... but this morning when my mom told me to move the car forward and back... that was everything but funny. i learned that driving isn't as smooth and easy as i thought it would be. and when i sat on the front seat of my dad's car, i turned white and sat quietly...
everything changed. i knew that if i was the one who will sit behind the wheel, it would be different. as a car stopped in front of us, my back would uncomfortably push back onto the seat... really, the big road trip i am looking forward to, will just have to wait or in fact be permanently be postponed.
i'm afraid to die... i'm afraid to sit behind the wheel. i want to accelerate faster and faster but i can't... i'm just too afraid...
i got my student's permit last wednesday, and everyone who has been around me saw my excitement over that very little change in my life. i still am excited about having my own car... in fact, i researched and asked the prices of the cars i would like to have. honda jazz, hyundai getz or kia picanto... really, not because it's the one i like but it's something that could fit the budget or even lower than the budget. i like one that's colored orange and has a sun roof like my dad's ford lynx!
i was excited too the first time my mom gave me the keys to start the engine of our present car. the second day when i started it, we nearly crashed onto the wall. i still thought it was funny because it didn't happen at all... but this morning when my mom told me to move the car forward and back... that was everything but funny. i learned that driving isn't as smooth and easy as i thought it would be. and when i sat on the front seat of my dad's car, i turned white and sat quietly...
everything changed. i knew that if i was the one who will sit behind the wheel, it would be different. as a car stopped in front of us, my back would uncomfortably push back onto the seat... really, the big road trip i am looking forward to, will just have to wait or in fact be permanently be postponed.
i'm afraid to die... i'm afraid to sit behind the wheel. i want to accelerate faster and faster but i can't... i'm just too afraid...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
online gaming
are you an online gamer?
well, i play PangYa... the online golfing game. i'm not seriously addicted to it but i do want to earn enough pang to complete the outfit that i want. a black bandana, ad girl gloves and the strawberry tank top that i had my eyes on ever since i played the game...
anyway, not an avid gamer really that's why up to this day, my level is still RookieB... i know, pathetic... haha! anyway, not really the deal here... my character is a girl cause i found her cute... with her big yellow ribbon, red hair and blue top... what can i say, i have a thing for red heads! whenever i play, guys always hit on me... that's what i hate... i even tell lies just to get them off my back. sometimes i just ignore their messages... i come there to play not to flirt with complete strangers! anyway, awhile ago, i told this guy that i was a 20-year-old man playing the game for his girlfriend... although he was very friendly at first when he saw that my character was a girl, he told me to shut up! how rude! i guess you can see why i hate online gamers... specially if they're guys! rudeness much? and when i play the part of a girl, they hit on me. and when i ignore them, they get mad! what's happening to the internet now? the first time i have been to a chat room, that was about 10 years ago or so i think... basta, the first time mirc was the talk of everyone... i had this huge crush on the one i was talking to. naive, gullible, stupid... ok, i was a kid. but he was a gentleman. he didn't talk about stuff that would piss you right off... he didn't flirt around... he was like an older guy who just want to be friends. right now, gamers from 11 years old onwards are such rude people... that's why i rarely play right now... wish i could earn enough pang to buy a guy player!
oh well... that's it for online gaming... i hate the guys there!!!
well, i play PangYa... the online golfing game. i'm not seriously addicted to it but i do want to earn enough pang to complete the outfit that i want. a black bandana, ad girl gloves and the strawberry tank top that i had my eyes on ever since i played the game...
anyway, not an avid gamer really that's why up to this day, my level is still RookieB... i know, pathetic... haha! anyway, not really the deal here... my character is a girl cause i found her cute... with her big yellow ribbon, red hair and blue top... what can i say, i have a thing for red heads! whenever i play, guys always hit on me... that's what i hate... i even tell lies just to get them off my back. sometimes i just ignore their messages... i come there to play not to flirt with complete strangers! anyway, awhile ago, i told this guy that i was a 20-year-old man playing the game for his girlfriend... although he was very friendly at first when he saw that my character was a girl, he told me to shut up! how rude! i guess you can see why i hate online gamers... specially if they're guys! rudeness much? and when i play the part of a girl, they hit on me. and when i ignore them, they get mad! what's happening to the internet now? the first time i have been to a chat room, that was about 10 years ago or so i think... basta, the first time mirc was the talk of everyone... i had this huge crush on the one i was talking to. naive, gullible, stupid... ok, i was a kid. but he was a gentleman. he didn't talk about stuff that would piss you right off... he didn't flirt around... he was like an older guy who just want to be friends. right now, gamers from 11 years old onwards are such rude people... that's why i rarely play right now... wish i could earn enough pang to buy a guy player!
oh well... that's it for online gaming... i hate the guys there!!!
Thursday, April 27, 2006
american idol 5
wah! this is the worst elimination night ever for american idol season 5!!!
although last week was a good choice. after ace, kellie pickler walked away from the title of the next american idol... honestly, i thought that wasn't a fair one... kellie was a good singer, she performs well but has the last two nights off... big deal... but as everyone knows, in american idol, you need to always be at your best.ever since i watched this season's performances, i have been cheering for kellie all the way... it's kind of a sad thing seeing her leave.
now, i will just be looking forward to the performance of chris daughtry, nothing more. hope he will be there for the rest of the competition. i loved what he performed last night! absolutely amazing... right song, nice vocals... what more to say?!
so, that's it... my rants for american idol season 5 top 6.
although last week was a good choice. after ace, kellie pickler walked away from the title of the next american idol... honestly, i thought that wasn't a fair one... kellie was a good singer, she performs well but has the last two nights off... big deal... but as everyone knows, in american idol, you need to always be at your best.ever since i watched this season's performances, i have been cheering for kellie all the way... it's kind of a sad thing seeing her leave.
now, i will just be looking forward to the performance of chris daughtry, nothing more. hope he will be there for the rest of the competition. i loved what he performed last night! absolutely amazing... right song, nice vocals... what more to say?!
so, that's it... my rants for american idol season 5 top 6.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Confessions of a Prince
been attending summer classes... it's fun! grabe! so much fun! imagine sitting down for 3 hours straight doing nothing but integrating transcendental functions, differentiating y=f(x) and putting all these formulas into your head and actually applying them! Really, this isn't just sarcasm... a part of it is truly fun. i just finished taking the first long quiz awhile ago and well, all i could say is, it melted my brain!!! *night of the living dead*
oh well, after classes, mom and me usually go rushing to robinsons or sm manila for some serious munching and shopping! there are a few times when i go play badminton or just hang out with friends and watch a movie like last saturday and yesterday. summer really is great, there are times in which i just want to go home at once, connect to the internet to continue my downloads, turn the boob tube on and bake or make desserts! or sometimes, i don't leave the pc... like today. i stay here, and continue writing my on going fiction, Confessions of a Prince. i love what's happening in it already... a couple of readers thinks so too! so, take a peek if you want to! i'm really really really proud of how things are going in this fiction of mine... and oh yeah, before you start reading, all of it is pure fiction! first of all, Justin Daniels is a guy, i'm a girl so, that's one fiction there already... the one narrating is a guy!!! oh yeah, comment on it will ya, guys? if it's guy enough or still girly... i think like a guy most of the time but i feel like the guy-ness is going going and i'm still hoping it's not gone just yet! haha!
so, what else is new in my life? i'm enjoying it right now, and i dare say i'm getting prettier and cuter by the minute! haha! joke! i'm into so many things right now... so many changes in my life have been happening and i'm really enjoying every little bit. like going against what i used to like... hehe, i won't expand on this... even my taste in music has been changing from one genre to another... like, right now, i'm listening to the album of Skye Sweetnam!!! and ust last night, i was grooving to the walk the line soundtrack! but one thing hasn't changed though, i'm still lovable!! joke! no, one thing that didn't change, i'm still a cartoon buff!!!
ooops! TeeVee time!!! got to go! Please do me a favor and check the fic out!
SMELL YA LATER!
~ mysh
oh well, after classes, mom and me usually go rushing to robinsons or sm manila for some serious munching and shopping! there are a few times when i go play badminton or just hang out with friends and watch a movie like last saturday and yesterday. summer really is great, there are times in which i just want to go home at once, connect to the internet to continue my downloads, turn the boob tube on and bake or make desserts! or sometimes, i don't leave the pc... like today. i stay here, and continue writing my on going fiction, Confessions of a Prince. i love what's happening in it already... a couple of readers thinks so too! so, take a peek if you want to! i'm really really really proud of how things are going in this fiction of mine... and oh yeah, before you start reading, all of it is pure fiction! first of all, Justin Daniels is a guy, i'm a girl so, that's one fiction there already... the one narrating is a guy!!! oh yeah, comment on it will ya, guys? if it's guy enough or still girly... i think like a guy most of the time but i feel like the guy-ness is going going and i'm still hoping it's not gone just yet! haha!
so, what else is new in my life? i'm enjoying it right now, and i dare say i'm getting prettier and cuter by the minute! haha! joke! i'm into so many things right now... so many changes in my life have been happening and i'm really enjoying every little bit. like going against what i used to like... hehe, i won't expand on this... even my taste in music has been changing from one genre to another... like, right now, i'm listening to the album of Skye Sweetnam!!! and ust last night, i was grooving to the walk the line soundtrack! but one thing hasn't changed though, i'm still lovable!! joke! no, one thing that didn't change, i'm still a cartoon buff!!!
ooops! TeeVee time!!! got to go! Please do me a favor and check the fic out!
SMELL YA LATER!
~ mysh
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
lil_mysh
holy week just passed me by so quickly. 'm not really a very good Christian, i admit that. i didn't go to Church like i'm supposed to... but i prayed, not really in the sense that i made the sign of the cross and everything... but i had a lot of free time and i talked to God... i do that a lot.
thursday's moon was awesome! the last time i saw a moon like that was the summer after grade 6. and the one who told me to look at it was in cebu that time... from that time on, i have always followed the moon around. i stayed at the balcony of our house in Sta. Mesa for awhile, then the stars appeared... a beautiful, beautiful sight. the only thing missing? a bottle of champagne and someone special to dance with... *sigh*
and friday, i'm nowhere to be found... as well as saturday. where have i been? to a place where my sun cell have no signal or very little for that matter... i went to Zambales with my dad to "originally" eat some shrimps... correction, a lot of shrimps! i didn't know where zambales was... i didn't have a clue that it will take us 5 hours on the road just to reach our destination... but, i guess it was worth it. milk fish and shrimp were my favorite food there... the shrimp ponds are nice and i just loved to see the shrimps jumping around when the net was lifted. but summer here in the Philippines is really no joke... it's hot! and now, guess what, i'm tanned again... hopefully in a month's time my skin will return too normal again.
sunday, like thursday night, i was the "shobe" of the dinner table... well, it's not that i didn't enjoy it... it was fun being with my elder brothers (cousins) once in a while... talking about nothing else but the food in front of us... hahahha!!! and well, after dinner was our computer hogging time... we were all over the laptop looking at disgusting photos while our youngest cousin was being the little baby he is. and the week ended just like that... monday came...
i really thought monday was nothing but DOOM... it was course card distribution day for me... and heck! my first stop? chemtwo... i felt the room slowly closing in on me, i know it was my fault if i failed... i didn't really study... but, thankfully, i barely passed... not really the type of thing that i would be proud off... but considering what i did in preparation for the finals and all the long quizzes, i think it's appropriate. and the rest followed. the time i went in the room to get my phyeng1 course card... J210 at 11:00 am... i didn't really want to stay cause like Dr. Palisoc said, i am wasting my time there... i was sure that i will be receiving another 0.0... but i was brave enough to stay and said to myself that if ever i really got a 0.0, it was all my fault for not taking phyeng1 seriously like everyone else. i got it, didn't even bother to look at the grade waiting for me... i received the card faced down, didn't even bother to look at it, i inserted in in my pouch and went out the door. i didn't cry... but i think i went pale there, the pressure was more than i could ever handle. my heart was crying out and just wanted to break... it was heavy, i was nervous and shaking... there was no one there to be with me once again when i see a 0.0 on the course card. when i gathered up my courage which took about only a minute or two, i looked at it and nearly shriek right there, outside J210! i passed! well, barely but still i passed!!! 1.0! ok, that humiliating... but, i know i didn't do the best i could... promise, i will be studying harder from now on! i called steph lee, the one who was with me from the time i entered la salle that day. and i was estatic! excited for once that day! i felt so great to know that i didn't ask anyone to help me out and i did everything in that class all by myself... i listened by myself, took notes... everything! i did it!!! since then, everything went by smoothly that day and when night came, i was tired beyond words...
and truthfully saying, today's badminton and pingpong session was totally great for me... but the problem is... now i have a slight fever!!! oh well, back to the boob tube for my shows!
thursday's moon was awesome! the last time i saw a moon like that was the summer after grade 6. and the one who told me to look at it was in cebu that time... from that time on, i have always followed the moon around. i stayed at the balcony of our house in Sta. Mesa for awhile, then the stars appeared... a beautiful, beautiful sight. the only thing missing? a bottle of champagne and someone special to dance with... *sigh*
and friday, i'm nowhere to be found... as well as saturday. where have i been? to a place where my sun cell have no signal or very little for that matter... i went to Zambales with my dad to "originally" eat some shrimps... correction, a lot of shrimps! i didn't know where zambales was... i didn't have a clue that it will take us 5 hours on the road just to reach our destination... but, i guess it was worth it. milk fish and shrimp were my favorite food there... the shrimp ponds are nice and i just loved to see the shrimps jumping around when the net was lifted. but summer here in the Philippines is really no joke... it's hot! and now, guess what, i'm tanned again... hopefully in a month's time my skin will return too normal again.
sunday, like thursday night, i was the "shobe" of the dinner table... well, it's not that i didn't enjoy it... it was fun being with my elder brothers (cousins) once in a while... talking about nothing else but the food in front of us... hahahha!!! and well, after dinner was our computer hogging time... we were all over the laptop looking at disgusting photos while our youngest cousin was being the little baby he is. and the week ended just like that... monday came...
i really thought monday was nothing but DOOM... it was course card distribution day for me... and heck! my first stop? chemtwo... i felt the room slowly closing in on me, i know it was my fault if i failed... i didn't really study... but, thankfully, i barely passed... not really the type of thing that i would be proud off... but considering what i did in preparation for the finals and all the long quizzes, i think it's appropriate. and the rest followed. the time i went in the room to get my phyeng1 course card... J210 at 11:00 am... i didn't really want to stay cause like Dr. Palisoc said, i am wasting my time there... i was sure that i will be receiving another 0.0... but i was brave enough to stay and said to myself that if ever i really got a 0.0, it was all my fault for not taking phyeng1 seriously like everyone else. i got it, didn't even bother to look at the grade waiting for me... i received the card faced down, didn't even bother to look at it, i inserted in in my pouch and went out the door. i didn't cry... but i think i went pale there, the pressure was more than i could ever handle. my heart was crying out and just wanted to break... it was heavy, i was nervous and shaking... there was no one there to be with me once again when i see a 0.0 on the course card. when i gathered up my courage which took about only a minute or two, i looked at it and nearly shriek right there, outside J210! i passed! well, barely but still i passed!!! 1.0! ok, that humiliating... but, i know i didn't do the best i could... promise, i will be studying harder from now on! i called steph lee, the one who was with me from the time i entered la salle that day. and i was estatic! excited for once that day! i felt so great to know that i didn't ask anyone to help me out and i did everything in that class all by myself... i listened by myself, took notes... everything! i did it!!! since then, everything went by smoothly that day and when night came, i was tired beyond words...
and truthfully saying, today's badminton and pingpong session was totally great for me... but the problem is... now i have a slight fever!!! oh well, back to the boob tube for my shows!
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
things i hate
if there's one thing that i hate, it's waking up early in the morning with bruises all over my body!!! it hurts! since sunday morning, waking up has been like this... bruises, aching body... i'm simply physically breaking down... damn! my bad... why? i drank a little too much last saturday night on Jo's debut... messed my life even more i mght add... oh well, what's done is done...
hmm... things that i hate... i guess reading cliffhanger fiction is one. since thursday night, i have been into reading fictions again... i'm even writing one right now... "Confessions of a Prince". i haven't continued updating "From the Inside Looking In" though... seems that i have lost my inspiration on writing about the point of view of a two-timing girl for now... and have decided what i think of jerks! oh well, i'm placing myself in one anyway in order to write this fiction...
one more thing that i hate, it's how much my memory stinks when i really need it, and how clear it is when i don't want to remember stuff... i guess i'm just destined to always dwell in the past and remember what i have done wrong... or what now seems foolish for me right now. i'm tired of it... i want to move on...
so, what else? oh yeah, finals is a thing of the past since yesterday at 1:34 pm, on the dot! woohoo! now it's just doomsday (course card distribution) and summer classes... first time ever that i would not be enjoying summer vacation... although when i was in grade 6 i took up summer classes cause i didn't reach the 85 grade average which was needed in order to proceed to 1st year classes. but that was diffeerent, i enjoyed that even though i was awake almost the whole night on the phone talking to some people most of the time... still, i enjoyed it! but this summer class now is different... it's calculus!!!
oh well, might as well enjoy what's left of my so-called summer break... bye bye 1 month vacation... it's just about 2 weeks for me...
hmm... things that i hate... i guess reading cliffhanger fiction is one. since thursday night, i have been into reading fictions again... i'm even writing one right now... "Confessions of a Prince". i haven't continued updating "From the Inside Looking In" though... seems that i have lost my inspiration on writing about the point of view of a two-timing girl for now... and have decided what i think of jerks! oh well, i'm placing myself in one anyway in order to write this fiction...
one more thing that i hate, it's how much my memory stinks when i really need it, and how clear it is when i don't want to remember stuff... i guess i'm just destined to always dwell in the past and remember what i have done wrong... or what now seems foolish for me right now. i'm tired of it... i want to move on...
so, what else? oh yeah, finals is a thing of the past since yesterday at 1:34 pm, on the dot! woohoo! now it's just doomsday (course card distribution) and summer classes... first time ever that i would not be enjoying summer vacation... although when i was in grade 6 i took up summer classes cause i didn't reach the 85 grade average which was needed in order to proceed to 1st year classes. but that was diffeerent, i enjoyed that even though i was awake almost the whole night on the phone talking to some people most of the time... still, i enjoyed it! but this summer class now is different... it's calculus!!!
oh well, might as well enjoy what's left of my so-called summer break... bye bye 1 month vacation... it's just about 2 weeks for me...
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
missing them...
on my way home from the university, i looked out the window of our car thinking of nothing but our upcoming finals for engcal1 tomorrow. but then, something intercepted the wave... i miss being with someone.
i rest my head on the door and thought about how great the feeling was to have someone's shoulder to rest my head on instead of a cold, hard door. i thought about how great it was to hug someone just because i was feeling down or i just felt like doing it! how great it is to have someone tell me that everything will be fine... that i need not to worry about what tomorrow will bring because he is always there... i miss the words "love ya" being said to me every night... i miss the "miss ya" and "ingats" being texted to me every single day that we are apart. or the winks that sends chills to my spine... i simply miss the feelings... the excitement and the love.
so, what is it that i really want? i don't want the same pain that i felt. i don't want to remember the past... what i want is a new beginning, a new life and a new someone. i don't want the same thing again... but i want the feeling, the actions being done by someone who will take me seriously this time around.
*happy 6th monthsary to Rabbit and Giraffe!
i rest my head on the door and thought about how great the feeling was to have someone's shoulder to rest my head on instead of a cold, hard door. i thought about how great it was to hug someone just because i was feeling down or i just felt like doing it! how great it is to have someone tell me that everything will be fine... that i need not to worry about what tomorrow will bring because he is always there... i miss the words "love ya" being said to me every night... i miss the "miss ya" and "ingats" being texted to me every single day that we are apart. or the winks that sends chills to my spine... i simply miss the feelings... the excitement and the love.
so, what is it that i really want? i don't want the same pain that i felt. i don't want to remember the past... what i want is a new beginning, a new life and a new someone. i don't want the same thing again... but i want the feeling, the actions being done by someone who will take me seriously this time around.
*happy 6th monthsary to Rabbit and Giraffe!
Sunday, April 02, 2006
hand
i never thought life without an inspiration would be so hard. life will neve be happy if you don't have someone who you care for even though it's one sided. i never considered where my imagination would run off to when i'm feeling what i'm feeling right now...
after watching ginban kaleidoscope, wherein sakurano tazusa didn't regret loving pete pumps even though she knew they could never be, i found myself thinking that i also want someone to be there for me when i'm scared. to be there for me when i can't say what is inside my mind. to be there to hold my hand when i'm trembling like right now... to accept me for who i am, the good parts (if there's any) and the bad parts as well... i know that i'm weak, i often feel my body breaking down even though i'm only thinking... right now, i am still afraid... afraid of what? i don't really know...
so, can you take my hand before you walk out of my life for good? one little favor... that's all i ask.
after watching ginban kaleidoscope, wherein sakurano tazusa didn't regret loving pete pumps even though she knew they could never be, i found myself thinking that i also want someone to be there for me when i'm scared. to be there for me when i can't say what is inside my mind. to be there to hold my hand when i'm trembling like right now... to accept me for who i am, the good parts (if there's any) and the bad parts as well... i know that i'm weak, i often feel my body breaking down even though i'm only thinking... right now, i am still afraid... afraid of what? i don't really know...
so, can you take my hand before you walk out of my life for good? one little favor... that's all i ask.
Monday, March 27, 2006
fool
why do i always need to play the fool?
i'm really trying so hard to move on and actually leave my past behind... but then, there are people who would just bring it all up again... over and over again... ok, i guess i have played the part of a fool. not just any ordinary fool but the ultimate one... believing that someone who doesn't care loves me... letting someone lead me so off track that everything i did was for him... that the reason for my existence seemed like to surround him... that was foolish... i know that. but people don't have to bring it up again... i have grown up. i now know what is good for me... although i still haven't found a reason for my existence... but don't worry, i still have a lifetime to find that out. so anyway, am i really that gullible? am i that naive to just take what other people say about me without batting an eyelash?
i guess i am.. but i learn... and yet, i still take what others tell me... kaya lagi nalang ako naloloko... nauuto... i know that i think like a child, act like one and specially am still one. but i hope other people wouldn't take advantage of who and what i am... i mean, don't overdo the harsh comments, specially if we aren't close... because i am still a girl and i tend to cry a lot. don't take me for a fool cause i really have a bad temper. don't take my smile so seriously, for sometimes, it is something i put up to disguise a crying face. don't mess with me especially if i'm hyper, for that is when i easily get irritated and mad. and most specially, don't play with me, lead me on and dump me one more time... anyone! for i hold grudges... and i don't believe in the saying "forgive and forget".
so, am i still a fool? someone else out there want to play with me? i get hurt, right, but when i plan a revenge, it's just not a plan on paper, but a plan in action as well. and expect the worst... cause it will really put any plan to shame! am i still young and gullible? would somebody out there take the challenge? play with me, but never play with the heart... cause it plots!
** isang banta... angry mysh...
i'm really trying so hard to move on and actually leave my past behind... but then, there are people who would just bring it all up again... over and over again... ok, i guess i have played the part of a fool. not just any ordinary fool but the ultimate one... believing that someone who doesn't care loves me... letting someone lead me so off track that everything i did was for him... that the reason for my existence seemed like to surround him... that was foolish... i know that. but people don't have to bring it up again... i have grown up. i now know what is good for me... although i still haven't found a reason for my existence... but don't worry, i still have a lifetime to find that out. so anyway, am i really that gullible? am i that naive to just take what other people say about me without batting an eyelash?
i guess i am.. but i learn... and yet, i still take what others tell me... kaya lagi nalang ako naloloko... nauuto... i know that i think like a child, act like one and specially am still one. but i hope other people wouldn't take advantage of who and what i am... i mean, don't overdo the harsh comments, specially if we aren't close... because i am still a girl and i tend to cry a lot. don't take me for a fool cause i really have a bad temper. don't take my smile so seriously, for sometimes, it is something i put up to disguise a crying face. don't mess with me especially if i'm hyper, for that is when i easily get irritated and mad. and most specially, don't play with me, lead me on and dump me one more time... anyone! for i hold grudges... and i don't believe in the saying "forgive and forget".
so, am i still a fool? someone else out there want to play with me? i get hurt, right, but when i plan a revenge, it's just not a plan on paper, but a plan in action as well. and expect the worst... cause it will really put any plan to shame! am i still young and gullible? would somebody out there take the challenge? play with me, but never play with the heart... cause it plots!
** isang banta... angry mysh...
Saturday, March 25, 2006
answer
i can't hide it... it still hurts... it still hurts...
the times that i have spent smiling everything off... i say sorry to the people i was with... i was running away... just like what most people thought... i always run away... even now...
but there are times like this when i can't take it anymore... it still hurts... and right now, i can feel my body breaking down literally... i'm weak... i can't be strong... i never can... the sufferings just won't stop...
why is it that i can't stop my feelings anymore? i hate it... i need an answer not a talk once again...
it still hurts...
the times that i have spent smiling everything off... i say sorry to the people i was with... i was running away... just like what most people thought... i always run away... even now...
but there are times like this when i can't take it anymore... it still hurts... and right now, i can feel my body breaking down literally... i'm weak... i can't be strong... i never can... the sufferings just won't stop...
why is it that i can't stop my feelings anymore? i hate it... i need an answer not a talk once again...
it still hurts...
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
tired...
what is happening to the world? is there a discrepancy with the alignment of the planets? what's wrong???
i have been nothing but tired the last few days... i haven't really been doing anything but playing PangYa! just finished studying for our chem test... anyway... the point is, i haven't really been doing something with extreme describing it right? anyway.. this entry?
i have been baking again! like the post on snickerdoodles... i have been enjoying baking once again... i really stopped for a while because i was thinking "what's the point in baking when your inspiration can't get a bite or appreciate what you're baking?" but that's totally wrong! i enjoy baking... i love baking! cookies, muffins, brownies, cakes! actually, i haven't been baking cakes for a while... mainly because i stink at it... not really stink at it... but i don't like the way it ends up... although the taste is good... i think... not only baking by the way, i have also been cooking as seen in my status message in ym... what have i been cooking??? crabs! mostly spiced chili crab with different types of recipe! anyway... i will be continuing baking and cooking... and, still am selling cookies! :D menu?
snickerdoodles, choco oatmeal cookies, choco chip cookies, sugar cookies, peanut butter cookies... and many more! actually, i can't remember :P there's also a handful of muffins! choco chip muffins, apple cinnamon... wah! i really can't remember what i used to bake! anyway, cakes and doughnuts to follow :P
i have been nothing but tired the last few days... i haven't really been doing anything but playing PangYa! just finished studying for our chem test... anyway... the point is, i haven't really been doing something with extreme describing it right? anyway.. this entry?
i have been baking again! like the post on snickerdoodles... i have been enjoying baking once again... i really stopped for a while because i was thinking "what's the point in baking when your inspiration can't get a bite or appreciate what you're baking?" but that's totally wrong! i enjoy baking... i love baking! cookies, muffins, brownies, cakes! actually, i haven't been baking cakes for a while... mainly because i stink at it... not really stink at it... but i don't like the way it ends up... although the taste is good... i think... not only baking by the way, i have also been cooking as seen in my status message in ym... what have i been cooking??? crabs! mostly spiced chili crab with different types of recipe! anyway... i will be continuing baking and cooking... and, still am selling cookies! :D menu?
snickerdoodles, choco oatmeal cookies, choco chip cookies, sugar cookies, peanut butter cookies... and many more! actually, i can't remember :P there's also a handful of muffins! choco chip muffins, apple cinnamon... wah! i really can't remember what i used to bake! anyway, cakes and doughnuts to follow :P
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
twisted life
racism... what a word?!
since i have been accustomed to Filipino-Chinese culture, here's what i have to say about the Filipino-Chinese...
the Chinese have been known for pre-arranged marriages in the past... one thing for sure? it never works! even though the parents will arrange for them to get to know each other from childhood, it never will work because one way or another, they will learn how to love and not neccessarily with each other. maybe in some cases they will get along, sure... but then, they love each other more as a best friend than a real lover... and if given the chance, they will pick another. nowadays, it's rare to hear such a thing. now, what fil-chi parents say to their children is "dapat lan lang, bwe tswe dit huana..." why? because of racism... here's the scoop, i'm one of them... not really "bawal" but preferably lan lang... gets?
here's the parody.. i am 1/16 Filipino by blood! the mother of my mother's grand mother... so that's my great great grandmother... is a Filipina... and why not?! hahahh! take note : mother! not dad even though my surname is Aquilino, it's really supposed to be Co.
so, racism... why "bawal"? i think i better keep my mouth shut for the mean time cause i really haven't understand all these things yet... they told me i will understand in the future... always a twisted life... but the explanation given to me was to keep the race... see? to keep the blood pure. but it's not pure Chinese already ok? i have pinay blood flowing in my blood stream even though it's only 1/16. oh yeah, the skin color? dilaw parin e
since i have been accustomed to Filipino-Chinese culture, here's what i have to say about the Filipino-Chinese...
the Chinese have been known for pre-arranged marriages in the past... one thing for sure? it never works! even though the parents will arrange for them to get to know each other from childhood, it never will work because one way or another, they will learn how to love and not neccessarily with each other. maybe in some cases they will get along, sure... but then, they love each other more as a best friend than a real lover... and if given the chance, they will pick another. nowadays, it's rare to hear such a thing. now, what fil-chi parents say to their children is "dapat lan lang, bwe tswe dit huana..." why? because of racism... here's the scoop, i'm one of them... not really "bawal" but preferably lan lang... gets?
here's the parody.. i am 1/16 Filipino by blood! the mother of my mother's grand mother... so that's my great great grandmother... is a Filipina... and why not?! hahahh! take note : mother! not dad even though my surname is Aquilino, it's really supposed to be Co.
so, racism... why "bawal"? i think i better keep my mouth shut for the mean time cause i really haven't understand all these things yet... they told me i will understand in the future... always a twisted life... but the explanation given to me was to keep the race... see? to keep the blood pure. but it's not pure Chinese already ok? i have pinay blood flowing in my blood stream even though it's only 1/16. oh yeah, the skin color? dilaw parin e
Sunday, March 12, 2006
jumbo
last February 26, i attended a baptismal celebration with my dad and brother at St. Peter parish (hindi ko alam kung yan yung tawag basta sa St. Peter). it was baby Piolo's baptismal and birthday celebration. anyway, what was different with this? not so much... there was a magic show during the party, a cake (which was forgotten), guests eating... pretty much the same... different thing? smoking during a 1-year-old birthday party, drinking whiskey, beers and wine, and drinking games to go along with it... i enjoyed it! hahahah! it was a different experience not yet including that the food served which were all seafood was something the dad of the celebrant hate. in short, he didn't eat anything, he just drank and drank and drank... until he was drunk!
anyway, amazing thing about jumbo... a floating boat with an elevator and a very luxurious top floor! here's the pic with my brother taken by my dad...
and there i am... looking just like my dad...
and the night? i was having a drinking party of my own with the martini i brought home from the party! i was drunk ok? i admit it...
anyway, amazing thing about jumbo... a floating boat with an elevator and a very luxurious top floor! here's the pic with my brother taken by my dad...
and there i am... looking just like my dad...
and the night? i was having a drinking party of my own with the martini i brought home from the party! i was drunk ok? i admit it...
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
it damn fucking hurts!
i always wondered how to fall in love... and yet when i found out, i found out that it is something not worth the search... it f*ck*ng hurts...
i know i promised not to have entries like these anymore... but i can't help it...
i'm moving on... leading a happy life once again... and so it seems. emil asked me a while ago, bakit kung nakikita niya raw ako lagi naman akong masaya... pero lahat ng stat messages ko sa ym lahat depressing. here's a simple answer... my stat messages are the real me. what i put up everyday are the feelings i want to feel but can never really get them. like today, swolen ankle, MEMo revisions, chem short quiz (flunk it again), but what can everyone see? happy mysh... the stress test is the only one that read me right... i ranked red whole day long... i'm anxious... not calm, not contented and not stressed... just plain anxious. but still, i put on a smile for everyone to see. why hide my emotions, my feelings and my thoughts? simply not to worry anyone else... kasi kung sa ym ok lang e... not all status messages are real.
what do i feel right now? i feel like crying because i really don't know what to do. what to believe. and what to say... sa lahat ng mga narinig ko sa nakalipas na taon, hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga dapat kong seryosohin at kung ano ang dapat kong kalimutan... i'm not sure what are my real memories... the things people said to me, mga pinagbitawan na mga salita... hindi ko na alam kung ano ang totoo kong mga alaala... hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga kailangan kong dibdibin at kung ano ang mga kailangan kong limutin ng tuluyan... how i wish someone out there would tell me what they meant when they said those things...
it damn fucking hurts... and all i want to do is hug someone and cry... nothing more, nothing less...
i know i promised not to have entries like these anymore... but i can't help it...
i'm moving on... leading a happy life once again... and so it seems. emil asked me a while ago, bakit kung nakikita niya raw ako lagi naman akong masaya... pero lahat ng stat messages ko sa ym lahat depressing. here's a simple answer... my stat messages are the real me. what i put up everyday are the feelings i want to feel but can never really get them. like today, swolen ankle, MEMo revisions, chem short quiz (flunk it again), but what can everyone see? happy mysh... the stress test is the only one that read me right... i ranked red whole day long... i'm anxious... not calm, not contented and not stressed... just plain anxious. but still, i put on a smile for everyone to see. why hide my emotions, my feelings and my thoughts? simply not to worry anyone else... kasi kung sa ym ok lang e... not all status messages are real.
what do i feel right now? i feel like crying because i really don't know what to do. what to believe. and what to say... sa lahat ng mga narinig ko sa nakalipas na taon, hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga dapat kong seryosohin at kung ano ang dapat kong kalimutan... i'm not sure what are my real memories... the things people said to me, mga pinagbitawan na mga salita... hindi ko na alam kung ano ang totoo kong mga alaala... hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga kailangan kong dibdibin at kung ano ang mga kailangan kong limutin ng tuluyan... how i wish someone out there would tell me what they meant when they said those things...
it damn fucking hurts... and all i want to do is hug someone and cry... nothing more, nothing less...
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